I don’t know I think I just need to talk so I’m gonna talk.
The first time I tried to kill myself I was in the 6th grade. I don’t even remember why. Maybe there was no why. I used a pretty dull pocket knife and failed miserably – but I’ve been cutting ever since.
I’ve just been so messed up for so long. I don’t know what to do. Suicide hasn’t been an option for me for a long time. There was too much I cared about, too many responsibilities…
but I’ve sorta stopped caring.
I don’t know if it’s my medication numbing me or what’s going on, but I don’t draw anymore
I don’t play games anymore
i don’t read anymore.
My first counseling appointment is this friday but i don’t know if I can even wait that long.
i just dont know
3 comments
Blitz,
You can wait and it probably is the medication which is the part I hate it numbs you and everything else. Maybe they come up with something better let me know too.
As rocketman says, it could be the medication screwing with you. Let it all out though, they will be people on here that’ll talk to you about your problems and share their ideas with you. Wanting a way out doesnt make you messed up, it makes you seem rational, I know it’s not something that mainstream society accepts, but suicide can sometimes be the only answer. Depression sort of ruins your motivations and passions, huh?
Take a long nap and then a walk in the park. Swing on a swingset. Pick flowers. Try it, it’s not that hard. It might not help in the long run, but it’d make you feel better at the moment.