I don’t know when it where. But I am going to hang myself. I have made my decision. I’m done with this miserable thing called life. I can see a future for myself but there is no way in hell I will ever be able to make it. Too much pain and suffering. I’m dreads to just burn in hell. Guess I need to write a new updated suicide note.
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hanging yourself is not as easy as you might think… there is a specific science to it in order for it to be done correctly. sadly there is no “easy out”. but the fact that you say that you can sort of see a future for yourself, no matter how distant or seemingly unattainable, is maybe a message from your heart to your brain to hold on just a little bit longer.
but then, i am not in your specific situation, so i will not claim to know better. either way, know what you are doing before you choose to do it.
Ill do it when the time is right
i have a similar way of thinking. i have a plan and a date. i am only waiting to know for sure that it is the best of limited options. but unlike you, i am unable to see or feel any possible future for myself.
am i correct in remembering that you are a cutter though? why not simply cut all the right places?
Abselom ,
sorry but that’s a horrible way to go! not me
nevermind… i was mistaken. i just saw your post titled “i don’t cut”…
sorry for the confusion
There COULD be a future.. But it won’t be pleasant. It will take several more years of pain to get to it. I have been a cutter.. But I have my own habits that I use to hurt and mutilate myself that are less obvious to the oblivious.
Just going to wait for the right time..
…a more optimistic person would say, “instead of waiting to die, why not go out there and live?”
me however, i think that’s a big load of smelly steaminess.
i am sorry for your pain though.
I have no guts. I tried to hang myself two nights ago and I chikened out. II survived suicide………..again. Hanging :need a knoose
a knife
a jacket
Life is full of bullshit. And no one fucking cares about me or my life so why should I? I don’t. Not anymore. Ill kill myself..
Abselom,
if you don’t love and care about yourself first why should they?
And if I commit suicide then my dad will be right about me spending all eternity burning in hell
I’ve tried to love myself but its impossible to do. If you met me you would understand… I’m serious. If you knew me you would understand
personally i think that whole line of, “you have to love yourself first”… is trite and backwards. i don’t believe that a goal in life should be to love yourself first. that is incredibly arrogant and selfish. it is my opinion that we truly can find ourselves when we give love, kindness and compassion to others. you can be as hard as nails on yourself. but when give your whole being to another, you create a symbiotic existence.
giving to others in turn creates for you.
but that is just me.
and burning in hell or not, you should be comfortable with your choices as your own, not as they relate to others.
Abselom,
i wasn’t always a good rockectman like everyone on here knows and loves, i use to be a bad rocketguy! but i change little by little and i’m not perfect but i’m better than i was before,if you don’t like something about yourself change it little by little you will feel better.
What are you doing Absolem? Hanging yourself is definitely not cool way out.
It’s not all just myself. I can’t handle other people And everything they pile ontop of my life sucking as it is. I just quit. I’m done
Duke I’m not trying to be cool.
Neither am I it just happens. Why are you sad for
Too many things. I don’t even have the energy to type them
Abselom,
aw yes the rotton people! you can change them too! get new one’s!
I’d rather die. Does no one get that I want to die? It’s going to happen eventually
A lot of people on this site like you so you’ll have to hang around a little longer (no pun intended)
People on here like me? How? Never mind don’t answer that.. I’m just fucked in the head.
…when the time is right, yes.
i get it, and i agree with you.
the only thing i was trying to express to you was that i am sorry for all that you are suffering through. i truly do wish there was something i could do to help. but all i can offer is my apologies.
🙁
Abselom,
yes we all get it I WANT TO DIE TO! hello were on a suicied site! but what do you want us to do go yeah! yeah! do it? we hope you won’t do that to us! hell we might just go and do it!
I know that other people here are feeling like me. I know that
But do you ever get in that mind set that it doesn’t matter what anyone says or does, it means almost nothing. That is until you are able to snap out of it.
Duke what posts are dedicated to me?
Abselom,
yep been there! ride out the storm the sun will come out tommorow! bet your bottom dollar the sun will shine………………… pretty bad i no.
Rocket man you are a great person from what I know:) thank you
Abselom,
great is a pretty strong thanks you too!
I know that mindset well… there’s nothing anyone can say or anything that they can do to bring you out of how you feel. It’s up to you. And time.
OK, so the newbie here just HAS to ask: You said you can, kind of, see a future. As long as we’re all here, mind telling us what it would look like?
And, no, I’m not trying to trick you out of your plans — just joining in the conversation.
Dragonfly, well what I can see is me being married and having children… But I don’t think there is a man out there that will ever want to be with me or marry me. The one person I saw a real future with dumped me for someone else.. It just kinda destroyed the future I saw lying ahead of me. Things are just so piled against me that I doubt the future can really be any better than life is now. But then again I don’t know what god had planned for me…
Hello again, Abselom.
I do know what it feels like not to give a **it (OK, so I’m old-fashioned in my grammar, I’m still pretty cool for being old)! Heck, I recall actually begging the one person I knew would be hurt by my death to love me enough to give me permission to leave. Yeah – that was a strange time.
I absolutely know all the cliches won’t mean a thing, so I won’t go there either. I just wanted to acknowledge your reply.
I was never a beauty, came from a rough background, and had all kinds of strikes against me. Married a good guy, didn’t last because he didn’t understand commitment. Then, with a gaggle of kids, etc., worked my way through school, and found my Prince Charming, but NOT until I first explored who the heck *I* was. I just decided to try whatever presented itself and the more positive choices I made, the more positive chances I encountered.
Then my life crashed and burned – a few years ago now. And my second Prince stayed.
Yeah, now I can’t see how any of this is of any use to you, but I am going to post it anyway.
I hope you are rethinking that exit plan. You have better options!