I feel like I get so far, handleing depression, taking the pills etc. Then someone or various people reject me and Im back to square one. I fucken hate mtself so why the hell would anyone else like me.
I thought this group of people were my friends but their not. I think that I am just a joke to them/slash a backup person to hang out with. Fuck I shouldn’t drink either because it messes with my pills, but thats all these guys are about, drinking so I just end up doing the same. I fell for one of them too, hard. We had this thing to and other people noticed it as well. But I don’t think i fit the bill/the blonde fucken bimbos he goes for. Shit listen to me.
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Please don’t hate yourself, as much as I hate myself too, no one deserves to hate themselves. Just try and find someone who makes you happy and make them the center of your world, I’m not really good at giving advice but just please try and stay happy x
cloe32,
Don’t spend your time drinking and wanting to be a bimbo. that’s not going to get you anywhere real fast.
I deal with a lot of rejection. I know it’s hard, but don’t give up on this group. Not everybody is going to come across the way you want. You just need to put those aside . Take what you want and leave the rest. 🙂
blackhole,
was i being bad again?
Cloe32, sorry i just want you to do better for yourself sometimes i’m a little harsh but i do care.
Rocketman, no, like me I can be a little harsh too. But I just want people to know that they don’t have to feel like this. I’ve been through it ALL and I know what it’s like. Yesterday peaceme and someone else(can’t remember name) got mad at me and told me to have a little more respect. I didn’t mean to disrespect anyone, truly. I guess sometimes I can come across with tough love. I have to remind myself that there are some fragile souls on this site.
black hole,
Why is it when I listen to you I feeling like I’m listening to myself? And then other times I say stupid things? The truth is rocketman was a class clown always trying to entertain people make them laugh, I spent more time in detention for that, sometimes the whole year and I still haven’t learned my lesson! also I was the guy that ditched class was smoking and drinking doing drugs and had to get a GED , in those days I believed you could make it without an education actually I was right, I worked hard done what I wanted and now I make good money and I’m very responsible, but that’s the old days it’s not like that now not as much, my race is disappearing, look at my punctuation there isn’t any! I’m not perfect but I just want them to do better, today if I did those things I’d be in deep shit,also I feel there is a need for people like me I don’t always tell them what they want to hear, but sometimes it’s what they need to hear. Anyways didn’t mean to hi jack the post but I thought it might be a good time to let you know a little bit about me.
Thank you. I feel where your coming from, especially the part when you said people need to hear the truth and not always what they want to hear. It’s true. From what I gather your older? I am too and maybe that’s why we can sea eye to eye. Not that we can’t understand the younger generation because for me it was pure hell.
Thanks, I know your right xx I think it just hurt, you know having a connection with someone and then being shot down like that. I guess why would I want to be with someone who doesn’t accept me for who I am. I think I’m just going to create some space and try and look after myself x
Thanks for all your feedback 🙂