So some time ago i took a whole bottle of Prozac and some muscle relaxers so i wouldnt wake up, well as you can tell i did, but im just curious what damage i couldve done to my body. Received a phone call to prevent me from doing it, woke up, threw up a tiny bit and fell back asleep, next morning i woke up my entire body was shaking. Anyone care to explain what the damage is?
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Hello B.N.Crazy,
Are you still here? You might still get your wish!!! Only I think that maybe now you might not want the same things. I would be surprised if you are still here…and not in hospital…but I believe in miracles. There are some serious side effects of overdose with Prozac alone…neurophysical…but I’m praying that you are just scared and panicked and having some over the top anxiety.
Either way…if you’re still here…I would love to talk …or listen And I will answer your original question if you would like. You may want to start thinking about going to a doctor anyway.
I’m still here
Amakua
Thank ya for your time, i really didn’t want to ask anyone in person cuz people seem to react oddly when i would ask about the subject. and honestly i had also taken muscle relaxer and sleeping pills. But its hard for me to beleive in miracles, because i don’t think i deserved the second chance with my bad habbits. But i find comfort talking to people who can relate even a little, most people don’t listen when others talk, only wait for their turn to speak, which obviously isn’t listening. I was on meds previously for anxiety, then about a year later depression, but i just up and quit taking them one day. I still think about suicide off and on, usually when it seems like im sabotaging my own life and i make things more difficult myself. But its hard to tell what damage ive done to my brain, it can’t be good news being the OD and my extensive drug history, which makes it hard to go to doctor since they’d most likely say “well now that i know this id like to set you up in a room in a place that could help you”. Did the whole “behavioral health” thing, was stuck there for about a week which was all i needed to know i wanted to leave regardless if i got help. In conclusion, id like to thank you again for taking the time to reply seeing as no one else has.
Hey B.N.Crazy,
Just google the effects of each particular overdose…and realize that you still being here is a miracle…and besides which…I just read a couple of your comments to others…your mind is sharp…Hey I got an idea…re read what you wrote to others and learn to listen to the smartest person you know…YOU. I think you have a lot of positive things to offer others…if you can just get past this. I have suffered with Melancholia since birth…as well as a GAD caused by an overactive amygdala as well as trauma. I found myself…that if I took a mild tranq for the anxiety…my depressions eased up and became manageable. SSRI’s made me suicidal. I dunno…just sharing my experience. And I have been therapised to death…pun intended…and I am still learning about myself every day. I want you to know that there is hope and help…but you have to want it and accept it…to get it.
Okay…you’re turn to talk…my turn to listen… 😀
Just kidding…I’m headed to slumberland right smartly…but will keep an eye out for you in the days to come. I have to be up and running in 5 hours…it is not personal.
I wish you “Peace of Mind”
Amakua
No offence taken, but thanks, knowing someone is actually taking an interest in what i say puts me in a better state of mind being anytime i text someone with a problem i get things like “oh that sucks”, or “oh im sorry”, they may as well say “huh? i was too busy to acknowledge you may be going through a personal crisis and could care less”. But you gave me a whole hearted responce and honestly thats all ive wanted for the longest time, just someone to lend an ear. But my problems are small potatoes compared to yours, i almost feel like im just bitching which makes me bottle things up and have an outburst later in whatever day it happens. And as for your depression, I honestly hope its 100% all gone at some point, being its like cancer, if you don’t get it all at once, it will return, just as mine could, but my will is too strong to be toppled over. You’re insightful, helpful, and a wonderful listener and advice giver, which is are outstanding qualities being people are just getting dumber as each generation rolls by, don’t ever take those qualities for granted, people with those skills are hard to come by, and people will need you one day for it, in fact id be very upset if one day i somehow found out depression had taken you down with it, especially the people here on this site being were all here for the same reasons, to be listened to and feel like they matter. They need you here, your family needs you wherever they may be, and as of tonight, i need you here.
Keep in touch, keep your chin up, and i hope you have a great day
Cody (i know theres screen names, but putting my real name feels more right)
Hey B.N.Crazy…or Cody…totally up to you. I do understand your last line though…I felt the same way…but not everyone does. The truth is that we are all suffering…the kind souls on SP…your friends, family, neighbours. Everyone seems to be suffering from one thing or another. I fight constantly not to become too cynical…because that really helps no one. But sometimes it is soooo hard. I follow all my own advice though…finally 😀 So when I am having a bad time…I bring out my journals…can now come here, atleast till I can’t. I’ve been here a few times since last December. When I am doing good…I am here…so don’t worry about the likes of me. Because I also know I can come here when it is bad. 🙂 SP really did change my life…not always for good tho…there are some real ignorant asses here sometimes…and sometimes I can be one of them. 🙁 I want you to know that you are very welcome here….you are intelligent, literate, and caring…you meet all the requirements…hahaha And I look forward to talking to you more…about anything really.
Pain is not quantitative…everyone’s pain is the worst pain…we are only given what we can handle…really. I guess this is what I get for being such a smart ass…I was sooo smart…it took me half a century to figure out that I don’t know anything really. For every bad or horrible thing I have had to deal with…and when I could take no more and fell to my knees making those noises that humans should never make…there has always been someone there to pick me up…a stranger, a friend…sometimes a hand up is all we need. Then we stand up and keep fighting. I am a stubborn old so and so….haha So don’t look at my story and think yours is insignificant…remember I have over half a century of bullshit to draw from…you do not eh? And I am making my pain my friend…it seems to be working out very well…I have far surpassed the doctors predictions…and am actually getting “better” physically and emotionally…and I hate to say it here but spiritual as well…and no I prescribe to no religion or believe in one God…in truth I don’t believe in God or Gods…I know they exist…but they are evil in my opinion. I believe in Source.
You are more than kind…I’m blushing…but I am no one special…just a survivor…and I hope you are too. Can’t blame a girl for wishing eh? I pray you find your “peace of mind”…because that is all we really need…now isn’t it? I found mine…and I hope I can help even one other broken soul…to get up one more time and keep fighting. Depression will never take me…no way…I’m too old and mean and tough for that. I allow myself 2 days of feeling weepy and sorry for myself…and on the third day I rise again…and keep moving forward.
I am having a great day…especially because of you Cody…and I wish the same for you. But I gotta run…got a little one coming for the afternoon 😀 but I hope to be back on later tonight. Till we “meet” again.
Lots of Love
Ama