No one cares

Im 20, fucked up almost all relationships ive had, not a friend in the world, was chubby til early high school, had my self confidence basically taken from me and felt like hammered shit. But honestly, i think the people who talk shit on you are so bored and miserable with their life they need to talk about someone else, if they were really that interesting they wouldn’t feel the need to talk about you. I ain’t bad look’n anymore, but being ridiculed isn’t something i could just let go, but somehow i keep crawling through the mud and shit and come out clean. But in all honesty, a boyfriend won’t fix your life, thats not what theyre there for, just as a gf wasn’t going to fix my life. Im sure i got talked shit on all the time in school for my drug use, but fuck’em, who made them the masters and rulers of everybody elses life? No one, we humans as a species are in full control of how we feel and go about our life, unless someone threatens to kill you for being human, they can’t do shit. Its how you feel about yourself that only and always matters. Its a hard pill to swallow i admit, but life is literally what you make of it. hope i could help in some manner, if not i apologize for wasting any of your time.