i don’t know why but when my life was maybe a little better i was cutting.
now, my lifes even worse and i don’t have the guts to cut.
what’s wrong with me? i just want to make the pain go away and yet i can’t?
everyday., im physically and mentally exhausted.
I hate waking up and i just want to lie there and never move ever again.
somedays i wish the world was covered in black. darkness all around.
someday i wish everybody would die. someday i wish i was all alone.
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Yes i understand. when i was living with my dad who abused me i was ust trying to be the best. the best person i could be.. but when i came to a different state with things a little bit better i started to party drink cut and pop pills. even tried to commit suicide. maybe you feel stronger when you have things wrong in your life, that you can handle things.. maybe you just grew up with a hard time and now that things are okay you feel you dont have that sense of strength anymore.. now i am not a theripist but here is my e-mail if any of that related to you.. hang in there hun the storm will pass and the sunshine and the beautiful rainbow will shine(: samanthamcgoff@yahoo.com