I finally went to the ER last Tuesday and let them check me into the psych center. The first two days, my anxiety, social phobia and agoraphobia prevented me from eating (no food allowed in patient rooms…everyone had to eat together in one of two designated rooms) or even from getting water. I stayed in my bed, reading Sherlock Holmes stories. After the meds started to kick in, I went out of my room more. I met a twenty-two year old boy with such bad anxiety, he cried and shook and picked at his fingertips almost constantly. I talked to him twice, long talks about his life. I gave him my Sherlock Holmes book the day I discharged, gave him a big hug and told him he’s going to be okay. I also met a man with mild mental retardation who was shunned a bit by the other patients–they made fun of him when the nurses were out of earshot. I told him he deserves to be treated with respect, just like everyone else, and to pay attention in support groups so he can improve his behavior a bit. I was scared to death to get help, but I am so glad I got it. Next week I’ll begin volunteering at a local animal shelter and at an assisted living home for the elderly. I’ll be seeing my counselor twice a week. To everyone on here: you can stew in your own juices of depression, self-hatred and anxiety or you can get help, BE RECEPTIVE to the help you get and DO YOUR PART. Meds can only do so much for you; get out and get involved in this world. Distract yourself by helping to change the world…people are starving for kindness and compassion from one another…get out there and spread it!
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Im so glad you opened up and got help! That sounds like you really positively affected those people you met. I do wish you luck and i know you can change the world <3 yay
Your absolutely right ! I tried telling that to some one yesterday and they told me to have a limitless more respect . But if you choose not to seek help and want to get better…you’ll never get better. So good for you! I’ve been hospitalized many times to get me back on track. It’s what I had to do. And I did it because I didn’t want to feel like crap all the time. When your down and depressed that’s when you have to force yourself to get up. I know it’s hard, but that’s when you need help the most. Again, I’m happy for you. Good luck .:)
“To everyone on here: you can stew in your own juices of depression, self-hatred and anxiety or you can get help, BE RECEPTIVE to the help you get and DO YOUR PART. Meds can only do so much for you; get out and get involved in this world. Distract yourself by helping to change the world…people are starving for kindness and compassion from one another…get out there and spread it!”
Well clap clap to you.
Stewing in hatred? STEWING?
You need to read more about depression and learn how to talk to people who have it. If you came onto a suicide hotline saying this just because YOU feel better – then do not volunteer.
Its wonderful YOU feel better. Maybe you STEWED in it as though it were a fucking choice.
I can just see you MCing a funeral of a depressed suicidal person who lost their life to depression and hell and saying STOP STEWING AND HELP EVERYONE.
DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND people have done so and haven’t been able to get relief.
THIS IS NOT PULL YOUR BOOTSTRAPS UP AND GET DOCTORS AND MEDS.
Many of us are terminally UNEMPLOYED and have NO money NO resources. No family. Meds dont work.
If you have ever been the unlucky recipient of one of those suicide hotlines whereby the counselor can be rude as fuck (oh yes – try reading about how SOME of these counselors have made things WORSE) you will hear where I am coming from.
GOODY for you. You got help. No one begrudges you of that. But how dare you come here and tell people to essentially CHOOSE not to stew – akin to saying PULL UP YOUR BOOTSTRAPS AND GET OVER IT THROUGH XYZ (God, church, medicine, family). Whatever it is that works for you is fine. You have NO IDEA that not everyone has these resources. Many of us who have no family or friends job and our community does not offer EFFECTIVE help much less help at all – are not STEWING.
Great for you.
But some of us are so profoundly ill not one fucking person on the planet – even knowing how we are doing – gives a MF shit – the hospitals will not pay your bill. No insurance no job no hospital no medication
Get your fucking head out of your ass.
Some of us CANNOT and do not have these resources and want them.
Educate yourself some more before becoming the counselor for people who’s situation you cant begin to comprehend and clearly have no room for consideration.
I hate my life one more ounce because of posts like yours.
Who are you directing this at?
@KeepBreathing….what is your issue with folks today? You are the one that is being unhelpful in my opinion….the OP is entitled to her opinion…and I think it is a very good one….you don’t like it…move along eh? I would love to hear why you are so angry and upset today…but don’t have time unfortunately…so could I ask one favour before I go back to the hospital? Quit commenting until you get your own angst under control…I’m not judging…but you seem to be the one upsetting folks today…again…WHY?
Peace
Amakua
p.s….the next comment won’t be so civil
Hey Willow….YEAH YEAH YEAH
Nice to hear good news for a change…and you speak the truth…glad you finally got it…we do create our own reality after all…don’t we? Hope you get all the help you need…and even when things aren’t so good…remember your post…you’re sooo smart…hahaha…had the answers all the way along eh?
Nice
Amakua
Willow,
that really good if you don’t mind me saying so it sounds like you just needed to be pointed in the right direction and now you want to point other people in the right direction, my job is saving kittens I’m very successful at it! all they do is play with me,well i play with them too. it feels good to know i saved thier lifes they really are real people to me.