So I tried 7 times I used to have reasons to stay but they all just faded away my grandparents did it my mom did it do why can’t I? The 8th time is a charm.
Your not a cat, you don’t have 9 lives. Eventually your attempts will work. Only takes one, right? Do you really want to? Posting on here says you don’t. I’m not judging, far from it actually, but someone doesn’t want you to leave if you’ve tried that many times.
When my mother was pregnant, she went to a family friend who claimed he could tell fortunes, in a sense. He told my mother that she was pregnant, before she knew she was, and that she would finally have a girl who had dark brown hair and that girl would have a guardian angel with her throughout her life. Sure enough, my mother was pregnant, and she had me, a girl with dark brown hair. And sure enough I’ve been in so many car accidents where I should have died. I’ve been in horrible situations where I’m lucky to have walked away without a bullet in my head or being sent to prison. I should have died from the amount of pills I use to take in a given day or the drugs I shoved up my nose….and yet, I didn’t. All these little things kept happening,small, insignificant things (I thought) at the time I paid no mind too. But, now, I see I was being proteted. Was it a guardian angel? I don’t know. I couldn’t check a religion box on a form if I was asked because I don’t have one, so this isn’t a reigious rant. Look around, look beyond and maybe you’ll see the little signs that your not suppose to go right now.
Thank you. I just need a break. I can’t find the space I need.
Its been a while since I’ve felt this way. I don’t understand
Someone said its not my destiny to become the 3rd generation in my
family to do it I don’t understand why not. I’ve had a rough life done
a few bad things. I’ve tried lots of drugs but I don’t do any but
weed. This is a sober mind thinking this way. Tears fall all by themselves. I
I have a love in my life but she’s in jail. I miss her. I’m a her too I
don’t want to hurt anyone if I leave but if one day I do ill come back
and watch over them. I have to hold on for my love but sometimes I don’t care. Io
Your idealizing suicide. Coming back to watch over them, your talking as if dying is comforting and things will be all okay. The truth is no one knows what happens when we die, its that simple.
Your’e gonna have to figure out a way to be happy without SOMEONE and with out SOMETHING(s). And if your an addict, smoking weed, then soberity is not on your radar anymore. I am a recovering addict and your either pregnant or your not, get it?
If your going to do it, your going to do it, but you have to figure out what you want from this life and that body your renting for the short time you have it. Instead of asking yourself why me and this life is horrible, put some of that energy into figuring out how you can do the things you WANT to do.
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Your not a cat, you don’t have 9 lives. Eventually your attempts will work. Only takes one, right? Do you really want to? Posting on here says you don’t. I’m not judging, far from it actually, but someone doesn’t want you to leave if you’ve tried that many times.
When my mother was pregnant, she went to a family friend who claimed he could tell fortunes, in a sense. He told my mother that she was pregnant, before she knew she was, and that she would finally have a girl who had dark brown hair and that girl would have a guardian angel with her throughout her life. Sure enough, my mother was pregnant, and she had me, a girl with dark brown hair. And sure enough I’ve been in so many car accidents where I should have died. I’ve been in horrible situations where I’m lucky to have walked away without a bullet in my head or being sent to prison. I should have died from the amount of pills I use to take in a given day or the drugs I shoved up my nose….and yet, I didn’t. All these little things kept happening,small, insignificant things (I thought) at the time I paid no mind too. But, now, I see I was being proteted. Was it a guardian angel? I don’t know. I couldn’t check a religion box on a form if I was asked because I don’t have one, so this isn’t a reigious rant. Look around, look beyond and maybe you’ll see the little signs that your not suppose to go right now.
Thank you. I just need a break. I can’t find the space I need.
Its been a while since I’ve felt this way. I don’t understand
Someone said its not my destiny to become the 3rd generation in my
family to do it I don’t understand why not. I’ve had a rough life done
a few bad things. I’ve tried lots of drugs but I don’t do any but
weed. This is a sober mind thinking this way. Tears fall all by themselves. I
I have a love in my life but she’s in jail. I miss her. I’m a her too I
don’t want to hurt anyone if I leave but if one day I do ill come back
and watch over them. I have to hold on for my love but sometimes I don’t care. Io
Your idealizing suicide. Coming back to watch over them, your talking as if dying is comforting and things will be all okay. The truth is no one knows what happens when we die, its that simple.
Your’e gonna have to figure out a way to be happy without SOMEONE and with out SOMETHING(s). And if your an addict, smoking weed, then soberity is not on your radar anymore. I am a recovering addict and your either pregnant or your not, get it?
If your going to do it, your going to do it, but you have to figure out what you want from this life and that body your renting for the short time you have it. Instead of asking yourself why me and this life is horrible, put some of that energy into figuring out how you can do the things you WANT to do.
Nothing happens when we die. It’s just the end.