So last night I met someone!!! She has long black hair, she has these really blue eyes, kind of round face, half Asian half Irish. I meet her when I was climbing a fence because I was trying to watch this match, she could not get over it so I helped her, then we were standing next to each other and we were talking while the game was on. I was so nervous I could feel my stomach turning, I felt such a connection. When the game was over we talked for ages after. She let me walk her home and on the way we passed by this drunk person and she clung to me, like put her arms around me and hugged me, so I put my arm around her. When we got to her house she gave me her number and I gave her a lingering kiss and watched her dance up the steps.
When I was walking home I felt complete, so happy, may life was now perfect, then I realized I was in the forest, I had walked from her house to the forest?
That’s when I woke up.It was all a dream. When I woke up I almost started to cry. I did put my fist through the wall though, that hurt, and my dad is pissed. It was all a dream, the girl of my dreams literally was the girl of my dreams. I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest, I was so happy, I felt the nerves, I felt her embrace, I felt everything, including the love. When I woke up I refused to believe it for a While, I tried to convince myself it actually happened. But its only when you wake up you realise that it was weird.
I am deeply depressed right now. I feel like life has played a cruel joke on me, giving me the only thing I really wanted in this world, and then taking it away. Fuck. I cant express how fucked up this has made me feel. I mean I really felt the emotions, the nervousness the sound of her voice. FUCK me I am pissed right now.
I can feel her face fading as I am writing this, the sound of her voice becoming less and less clear as the dream starts to dissolve from my mind and I left only questions and anger. I love her. She was perfect, everything I have always wanted.
Sorry if this post makes no sense, I am not in a clear place right now. I still have not decided whether or this is a good thing.Do I take this as a cruel joke, or is this just a glimmer of the true and real happiness that awaits me? I dont know at the moment.
Perhaps this is the closest I will ever get. Perhaps this is a premonition. Only time will tell I guess.
<3 you guys, hope you all have a good day.
Ruins
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🙁 I felt that <3
I’ve also felt that, sometimes dreams can predict the future. (it happens to me a lot but I don’t notice it til a while after it happened) So maybe it’ll come true.
you should be happy it was only a dream, and hope you can find her and that she will never be taken away from you.
i had a dream very real with him, after he was taken away from me i felt like that. im struggling to keeep living and this taunting dreams that show me im with him so then i wake up and it was nothing but a dream… but the pain returns!
@S, I told you it was a tear jerker. <3
@Somnium, Hay, how have you been since we last talked? And thanks, I hope it does come true.
@blahh, I hear you, Just because its a dream that doesnt mean the emotions arent real. I am sorry for your loss. <3
You’ll find her sweetie <3
There’s someone for everyone, you’ll meet her one day!:)
i know what you mean Ruins, i know your emotions and feelings are real and thats how i could relate to it. but you can look froward to finding someone in the future and i honestly hope you do soon. hope it was a vision dream as i call it 🙂
” I feel like life has played a cruel joke on me, giving me the only thing I really wanted in this world, and then taking it away. ”
it describes fully what im feeling what i felt what i will feel and wont change anywhere in the near future and thats what made me relate to what you wrote. just wanted to say you have somethng to look up to because that girl will arrive in your life. <3