Searching for my extra-terrestrial home

I’m not crazy.  I score high on Asperger’s but it’s still not a good fit.  I have always had this feeling of not belonging, even of being an alien.  When the loneliness gets too bad, I think of suicide.  On better days, I think about what my mission might be.  Maybe just to explore or be an emissary.  I have taken up the study of astronomy expressly to find out whether some other star might resonate.  I haven’t yet found the star, but I have found the constellation.  Somehow I knew the name before I knew it existed.  Anyway, now I’m wondering if there are any other “aliens” online who have taken up astronomy for the same reason.  I’m sorry if this is not the proper forum for this.  I’m posting this inquiry on all kinds of sites where such folks might hang out.  Thanks for your time.