I have been hurting for a long time now. the emotional pain that i feel makes me feel like i have been hit in the stomach by a car. My boyfriend kicked me out of his house the day after christmas, leaving me homeless, penniless and i had to leave my pet behind and i know hes not capable of looking after her properly. My heart has broken for the future ive lost and my little kitten. I am numb all i can do is cry. I pretend to be okay, last night i went out and as new year struck, i looked around at everyone and i had never felt so alone and completly detached. That scared me. I cannot honestly see a way around this, and believe me ive tried. Ive tried telling myself that people need me and all that crap, but the simple fact of the matter is that they dont. My exsistence is pointless. So im not being selfish by wanting to do this. I can leave knowing that my family will be okay. As for my so called friends, well they are two faced and have shown that they dont care, so no harm done there. I not scared to die anymore. I was at first, I actually came across this site from looking for pro suicide sites, ive been having a hard time deciding which would be the most effective and simple way to do it. Its hard to find a proper answer. Im so cold, i just cant do this anymore.
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Zot,
Suicide is NEVER the way to go. As long as you’re still alive you have choices. You ALWAYS have a way out! It can ALWAYS get better. And you can always contribute to life, as long as you live.
Say you manage to meet someone who feels as bad as you do. And you hug them. And what if you managed to stop that person from committing suicide that very same night. You’d have saved a life that way.
When you’re dead you can no longer do anything. Whether you believe in afterlife or not, you can never change this life anymore. As long as you live you can still do something that may help.
Go, get your kitty back and live on. You CAN do it! And we’ll be here to help you. We’ll listen to your pain and try to advise. Just, please, want our help 🙂