It means a lot actually. I think I’d of given up a few years back without this site. Nothing specific has happened, I can just go for days without anybody contacting me and when they do it always feel like there’s somewhere they’d rather be. I supposed people who are depressed aren’t always much fun to be around
I hear you sister, “Ain’t nobody for time for that!!”. I have not received a text message in over a week. But I think it might be our faults :/ I am a distant friend, they don’t have much reason to text me. I would only drag them down. So I say let them be free, enjoy their lives. While I try and fix mine. I have gotten a lot better, but it takes time.
I’ve been trying for years. Things work for a few months, but ultimately I always end back here. I don’t think I drag my friends down because from the outside, I really don’t think anybody would know I have this problem. I seem like a perfectly happy person. It’s just that everybody in my life is only interested in me if and when they need me. Any other time I just get forgotten about.
Sorry to tell you B but that’s life :/ there aren’t many people you are going to find who truly care about you. Your family and parents love and care, well mine do anyway, I have one or two close friends who care, but not really. I don’t seem them jumping infront of a bus to save me or anything, but they are there. And then I have about 100 friends who I just know and can chat too. More often then not, I am alone in my room. Sending emails or working on projects. :/ Sad but that’s reality.
What you need is a boytoy. He will listen, he will care, want to know about your day, even the mundane parts. If he doesn’t, then find a man who does care. There are 4 billion men on the planet, I am sure there are some nice ones out there for you.
Chin up, this will pass. 😉
I too put on a façade, but It is slowing becoming more natural, I am getting happier, but it takes a long flurking time.
I’m such an idiot! I just commented on another post instead of this one! And I keep going down the guy route. Every guy I meet ends up falling for me and 90% of the time I’m happy with them too. Unfortunately then something always goes wrong and I end up feeling more depressed than ever. I get so emotionally attached to anybody who actually seems to give a shit. I guess that’s my problem in life.
What do you mean by something goes wrong? If you don’t mind me asking.
I know exactly how you feel about being depressed, and feeling like a part of you is so used to be depressed it doesn’t want you to change. Its like you know that your sad, and you will continue to be sad if you listen to the little voice, But you have been sad for so long that anything else seems strange, and so we run back to the familiar, depressed and alone in our rooms talking to strangers on the internet :/
What usually ends up happening is either they leave the country (seriously, my last 2 bf’s have left the country!) or I find out a few weeks in that we’re after different things. Strangers are so much easier to talk to than people you actually know. I can never talk to people face to face about things, especially the really bad things that have happened. That’s why councilling never worked out for me 🙁
Darn, I was about to mention counselling because it really helped me. I mean it really helped me. I know you might feel uncomfortable siting in a room with a stranger, but that’s when you can make a real break through. I had social anxiety, bad anxiety, could not talk to the ladies either. My counsellor was a 27 woman, and easy on the eyes, me a 21 year old student. that first session was one of the most troubling hours of my life. But I kept going back because I had to, if I didn’t I would have done bad things to myself, I needed to change. The second time it was easier, I barely said a word the first time, now I opened up a bit, it was still really difficult. But now 10 months later I can just start talking to a random stranger. It really worked, I never thought it would, never believed talking could help, but it did.
I am not trying to push you into counselling, I am simply telling you about my experiences. but perhaps you should reconsider?
That sucks about you BF’s, really, its always worse when you break up without a problem in the relationship, it was mealy proximity that ended them for you. Sorry about that :/
I wish my words could be more comforting, sending you a virtual hug!! 🙂
butterfly93,
i’m always willing to talk and share i’m more up than down lately.
want someone to talk with? i could never go to counilling either.
recycling1000 @yahoo.com
I’ve had counselling for the past year with several different counsellors, I just never seem to get anywhere with them. None of them seemed to fully appreciate anything I was saying. They’d obviously never been in my position themselves. They were just really patronising the entire time. I’ve just got a new bf actually. He’s about the only thing keeping me going at the moment. It’s always scares the shit out of though when I’m relying on one thing to keep me sane. It’s such a fragile situation to be in.
I am very lucky that I found someone who really wanted to help me :/ I cant thank her enough really. I did have too very bad counsellors before her though, so I know what you mean, people are there for the pay check or some other reason known only to them.
HAHA, a new BF already, you work fast, I only mentioned the idea a few minutes ago!! did you grab some guy off the street or something? 😛
I kid of course. I am so happy for you, I hope it works out for you, really I do. But like you said, try not to get too attached in the beginning, don’t force it, if it fits it fits, if not find another puzzle piece, the one that makes you happy.
I should follow my own advice, I have been single for years now. But I have self worth issues. :/
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Want to talk about it?
There isn’t much to say. I just feel like nobody in my life gives a shit right now. They all seem to have much better things to do with their time.
Well I guess you have us, whatever that’s worth 🙂
How come you aren’t tearing it up?
Did something happen that you think no one gives a shit?
I hope you feel better soon Butterfly. Nice name BTW
It means a lot actually. I think I’d of given up a few years back without this site. Nothing specific has happened, I can just go for days without anybody contacting me and when they do it always feel like there’s somewhere they’d rather be. I supposed people who are depressed aren’t always much fun to be around
I hear you sister, “Ain’t nobody for time for that!!”. I have not received a text message in over a week. But I think it might be our faults :/ I am a distant friend, they don’t have much reason to text me. I would only drag them down. So I say let them be free, enjoy their lives. While I try and fix mine. I have gotten a lot better, but it takes time.
have you tried anything to make positive changes?
I’ve been trying for years. Things work for a few months, but ultimately I always end back here. I don’t think I drag my friends down because from the outside, I really don’t think anybody would know I have this problem. I seem like a perfectly happy person. It’s just that everybody in my life is only interested in me if and when they need me. Any other time I just get forgotten about.
Sorry to tell you B but that’s life :/ there aren’t many people you are going to find who truly care about you. Your family and parents love and care, well mine do anyway, I have one or two close friends who care, but not really. I don’t seem them jumping infront of a bus to save me or anything, but they are there. And then I have about 100 friends who I just know and can chat too. More often then not, I am alone in my room. Sending emails or working on projects. :/ Sad but that’s reality.
What you need is a boytoy. He will listen, he will care, want to know about your day, even the mundane parts. If he doesn’t, then find a man who does care. There are 4 billion men on the planet, I am sure there are some nice ones out there for you.
Chin up, this will pass. 😉
I too put on a façade, but It is slowing becoming more natural, I am getting happier, but it takes a long flurking time.
I’m such an idiot! I just commented on another post instead of this one! And I keep going down the guy route. Every guy I meet ends up falling for me and 90% of the time I’m happy with them too. Unfortunately then something always goes wrong and I end up feeling more depressed than ever. I get so emotionally attached to anybody who actually seems to give a shit. I guess that’s my problem in life.
I read you other comment as well, silly B 😛
What do you mean by something goes wrong? If you don’t mind me asking.
I know exactly how you feel about being depressed, and feeling like a part of you is so used to be depressed it doesn’t want you to change. Its like you know that your sad, and you will continue to be sad if you listen to the little voice, But you have been sad for so long that anything else seems strange, and so we run back to the familiar, depressed and alone in our rooms talking to strangers on the internet :/
Funny creatures aren’t we.
What usually ends up happening is either they leave the country (seriously, my last 2 bf’s have left the country!) or I find out a few weeks in that we’re after different things. Strangers are so much easier to talk to than people you actually know. I can never talk to people face to face about things, especially the really bad things that have happened. That’s why councilling never worked out for me 🙁
yugioh_20081@skype.com
Darn, I was about to mention counselling because it really helped me. I mean it really helped me. I know you might feel uncomfortable siting in a room with a stranger, but that’s when you can make a real break through. I had social anxiety, bad anxiety, could not talk to the ladies either. My counsellor was a 27 woman, and easy on the eyes, me a 21 year old student. that first session was one of the most troubling hours of my life. But I kept going back because I had to, if I didn’t I would have done bad things to myself, I needed to change. The second time it was easier, I barely said a word the first time, now I opened up a bit, it was still really difficult. But now 10 months later I can just start talking to a random stranger. It really worked, I never thought it would, never believed talking could help, but it did.
I am not trying to push you into counselling, I am simply telling you about my experiences. but perhaps you should reconsider?
That sucks about you BF’s, really, its always worse when you break up without a problem in the relationship, it was mealy proximity that ended them for you. Sorry about that :/
I wish my words could be more comforting, sending you a virtual hug!! 🙂
butterfly93,
i’m always willing to talk and share i’m more up than down lately.
want someone to talk with? i could never go to counilling either.
recycling1000 @yahoo.com
I’ve had counselling for the past year with several different counsellors, I just never seem to get anywhere with them. None of them seemed to fully appreciate anything I was saying. They’d obviously never been in my position themselves. They were just really patronising the entire time. I’ve just got a new bf actually. He’s about the only thing keeping me going at the moment. It’s always scares the shit out of though when I’m relying on one thing to keep me sane. It’s such a fragile situation to be in.
I am very lucky that I found someone who really wanted to help me :/ I cant thank her enough really. I did have too very bad counsellors before her though, so I know what you mean, people are there for the pay check or some other reason known only to them.
HAHA, a new BF already, you work fast, I only mentioned the idea a few minutes ago!! did you grab some guy off the street or something? 😛
I kid of course. I am so happy for you, I hope it works out for you, really I do. But like you said, try not to get too attached in the beginning, don’t force it, if it fits it fits, if not find another puzzle piece, the one that makes you happy.
I should follow my own advice, I have been single for years now. But I have self worth issues. :/
Anywho, I have to log off now. I don’t venture on here often, so this is very likely goodbye. Feel free to email me if you want to chat.
Goodluck with everything Butterfly93, May all your days be full of Smiles, laughter and love.
Also heres that hug I promised you. 😉
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