I’m so angry right now and fed up I really don’t know what to do and I’m tired of brushing off my feelings and burying them away inside like they’re nothing. I’ve really tried to overcome my depression but nothing has helped and I’m starting to question myself because having depression has really messed with how I look myself before this illness and I’m tired of hearing things like “this will pass” and other things like that because if that were true  then I wouldn’t be here right now and I’m tired and I just want to feel what I’m feeling and not cover it up so much . I don’t want to be here and I do try every single day looking for ways to get out of this I don’t even know if it’s worth it anymore because after so much failure I’m tired and I don’t even know if I can get rid of my depression anymore because I don’t think there’s hope for me .