it’s nice being in this community with people that seem to have the same feelings me,
i was starting thinking that i am the only one that may be feeling that way,
but i see that there are some other people feeling the same way i do,
i ve been thinking of suicide often too,
but i don’t want to know that there a re people out there who are about to do it,
i don’t know why but it hurts me.
i’ve been thinking of it for me, but i can’t even stand the idea that there is someone who decides to put an endto everything
sometimes i can’t stop crying , some other times i get so much panicked thinking of the past, future, present that i think my heart will break,
yesterday i was in the bathroom and seeing myself aging, white hair, wrinkles, it just came to me that i don’t want to die just like that- because of an illness or because of an accident- that is because someone else other than me caused it
i want to be the one who will decide when i die, not someone else
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The best thing about this community is that we support eachother with everything. Nobody’s alone.
But in the real world, most of us feel isolated and distant from other beings.
I believe that WE (the suicide project community) are the sane beings living in a mad world.
I don’t want to pass because I want to be the one who decides when I’ll die, I just want to go because everything within this planet we live on is poisoned. I can see everybody for who they really are.
But you are entitled to your opinion, ofcourse. And we, at the suicide project, will support you all the way.
All my love, LOBT (LivingOnBorrowedTime.)
yes, i agree with the points you raised
it’s just another thing that i thought of apart from not wantint to live in a world the way it is now
I just hope you stop feeling the way you do.
If you continue to feel like this, seek some professional help.
Don’t be afraid.
It’d be nice to know why you feel the way you do, right?
If you want/need to talk to somebody, I’m always here for you.
All my love, LOBT (LivingOnBorrowedTime.)