Be Happy

Ok. I know that the title of my post is contradictary to the theme of this site. But I want to say that I haved a fairky happy life. I have had fun. I have loved and I have been loved. Sometimes people just are not made for this life. I have been fortunate enough to experience all the highs and lows of a fairly ordinary life BUT, I just don’t feel like living. I don’t want kids. I don’t want a relationship. As soon as my mother dies there will be nothing stopping me from the only thing I have ever wanted. I appreciate the beauty of life. I have marvled at it. I love to walk out into nature and reflect on how far man has come. And then I walk back and see how low man has fallen. For all we have learned we still have not learned the destructive force that is lying. I’m not sure if this trait is exclusive to man but it’s destructive properties is evident since verbalization.