dunno if i want to live or die… i am not sure… but there is one thing i am pretty sure of , i am scared.
nothing i want ever happens and it seems like a preset design, that if i want something i lose it… whether it be love or happiness …
my family is torn apart…. i don’t know if i can salvage anything… my job is depressing…. my salary is never enough… nobody likes me… even when i mean good, people misunderstand me… i think i am stupid and just a burden… but this person i love loves me so much and that too unconditionally…. but it is just too good to last for long… coz nothing good stays for that long in my life….
but i don’t want to lose anything any more… i don’t want to be driven to the point of exhaustion when all i want to do is jump off a cliff….