How do I write a suicide note? What do I even say? How do I describe and make others see this pain that just wouldn’t go away? How can I put them in my place–how do I make them see that only in committing this selfish act I could truly have peace? How do I make them understand that this is the way it had to be? What can I say to make them know the problem with my life is that it was lived by me?
I feel like tonight is the night. I counted down for three weeks… hoping, waiting, wishing, dreaming, believing that things would get better. But they didn’t. Three weeks later, and it’s all painfully the same. But the countdown is finished. I had a deal with who I thought was a good God. We had a deal that things would change. He didn’t uphold His part of the deal. But I’m a woman of my word. When I say I am going to do something, I mean that.
So. How do I do it? How do I write a suicide note?
4 comments
Don’t write one.
Write a note to yourself, to the past, to the future or from the past or the future.
Maybe your own words can help you. Be your own friend.
Please, don’t write one. Like what Agony said, write. Write down your feelings and maybe let someone you trust read it so that person can help you through this tough time. To quote a person I know, ” Nothing lasts forever and suicide is a very permanent solution to what is most likely a temporary glitch in your life. You have the power to make tomorrow a better day, and if you take your life you will never get to know what might have happened if you had just held on that little bit longer. Please hold on, please fight through, stay strong – I believe in you, I care for you and I want to help you.”
This is exactly what I want to say to you. But it is after all, your decision. It all lies in your hands what you decide to do. Stay strong and fighting to make your life the best it can be or throw it away with a single action. B
ut if I were you, I’d choose the first option. 🙂 Stay strong, dear, and hold on hope! You can stay strong, I know you can 🙂
personally i think a note is a waste of time.
if you really care about those people – then you would ask them for help now….. but clearly you do not care enough about them to fight. So, why would you expect them to ever read your note or *want* to read your note.
I hope you choose not to do it. I hope you choose to get some help.