Such an empty shell…….

Don’t really know where to begin or what to say. I’m an empty shell of a man who wants nothing more than to just die. I hurt so bad inside my head each day and all anyone says is go on, move on, forget. How do you move on from 6 years? How do you forget a family that was your entire life? I have access to all the Argon one could ever wish for at my work. I don’t make enough for Helium or ********. Hopefulky I can get all my letters done this week. So far I got my will, POA and car title docs done. I have a handful of pills and a mason jar of alcohol. Hopefully I plan to go to my work after sunset this weekend, inflate my air matress in my office. Seal the door with duct tape after I haul in 4 or 5 rather large bottles of Argon gas. Put on some music and drink moonshine until I can varely function, take the pills and open the bottles until I got a good solid hiss from each then lay down on the matress and be done. I hurt so bad each day and no one seems to either understand or care. I can’t take it anymore the pain of a broken heart. I hope this will work. Goodbye.