This is a letter to those who feel like their only option in life is to see their death. To those who feel like they need to take this step in order to see something better, because what they seek in life isn’t here.
Who am I? Ever so briefly, I am someone who has traveled this road for much of his adult life, someone who experienced the depths of his own personal sorrow. Someone who felt his pain was only destined to be magnified by the events in his life which always steered him in a singular direction, toward the doorstep of death.
In every face you see, in every smile, in every laugh. In every happy ending you witness, in every miracle you see. In every word you read, perhaps even these, you see yourself taunted by a future you could never have. Why did your life bring you to these crossroads? Why were you left behind while everyone else moved forward? Why did others achieve so early what you could only dream of? Why was it easy for someone else? What is wrong with you that you had to be here at this moment, a moment where you are trapped between this world and the place you think you will find rest – the place you believe is where peace and heaven exists, a heaven defined not by religion, but simply an end to all pain.
Perhaps you try to manufacture this ‘heaven’ by putting on a facade, smiling and laughing while being trapped in a living nightmare. And though some moments in your life are not bad, you may feel that there is so much you are missing. And here, in this very moment you have been brought here to these words. Don’t underestimated your desire to be here at this very moment! It is for you that I have wrote these words, here in this tiny corner of the world for YOU to find!
Take heart young one. You have heard the phrase, ‘you are not alone’ before. Did you believe it? Am I not here for you right now? Those you witness around you, they are here for you too, living examples to guide you in your own journey. You find yourself comparing your journey to the ones living around you, the ones who have earned in ease what you have clawed and scratched for to try to achieve. Do not fret! I already know you can make it. What is unique to you, what gives you value? What is that you keep locked away, perhaps fearing that others would not understand? I tell you now, it is not something to be underestimated! You are precious to me, you were not left here and abandoned in this moment. Endure, overcome! Whatever you think is impossible, I am here to tell you today that that is a lie!
In this life we are all the same. I love you and I congratulate you for making it this far. You did not come here to learn how to die. You came here to see if you could find a way to live. You will find it. I believe in you.
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If only I were young enough to believe you 🙁
nope. i didnt come to find a way to live – AT ALL.
I thought to write somewhere how someone like me thinks. maybe others see in future and stop being judgmental. i came here to be able to express, my final words.