I really need someone

This is one of the worst days I’ve had in a while. My mom dragged me to church by lying that my aunt was sick and that I needed to babysit my cousin when I got there a pastor came there and it basically felt like everyone was staring at me I don’t mean to seem paranoid and it felt like an intervention. I don’t know why she makes me feel like such a problem child this is the second time this has happened I did try getting help and even went to a social worker at my school but she wasn’t for it for religious reasons I guess she told me: “if anything happens to you it’s me who’s affected not you and people may feel sad but they’ll move on” and to summarize I told her she couldn’t protect me from everything and she said she could. I really feel sad right now I don’t want people intervening if I want to get better then I feel like it shouldn’t be something I should feel ashamed for and it’s not bad for me to want to seek the comfort of my friends.

I’m so sorry that I keep posting on here I’m just extremely upset and like I said I need someone