Husband thinks I’m fine. Everyone thinks I’m fine.
I’m not fine. I’ve never been fine. No one wants to hear when you aren’t fine. I am never fine.
I’ve known for years exactly where I would jump. If things get too bad. If I really can’t handle it. It’s a bridge that is high enough but just in case I survive the fall, I’d fall onto a highway. Hopefully that would take care of it. I’ve also thought about backing that up with drugs but I don’t have access to anything I could OD on.
I have felt this way my entire life.
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But the important thing is that you haven’t jumped, and you know what that means, that you are strong. If you were weak you would have been gone, but you’re still here. And as long as you are still here then anything is possible, then things can get better.
You keep saying no to that bridge and every time you pass it you say “not today”
Maybe you should trying talking to your husband about you situation, if he truly loves you then he will listen. You two are a couple, and your problems are his and vice versa, don’t shut him out.