I am so alone.
I think everyone hates me. Well, they do. They call me fat and ugly, exclude me from every conversation and whisper about me when they think I don’t hear. But I do hear. Every word. And every word hurts. I thought you were on my side. But the words sting more than ever now. I have no one to talk to. I trust one person in the entire world and he’s turned his back to me. I am so fucking alone.
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You’re never alone. You have a full forum of people here to listen to you, myself being one.
I too have had these things happen, people being utter idiots; completely uncaring of what they say and how much one sentence can ruin self esteem.
In the end you must find an inner strength, I know it’s hard. Don’t rely on these people who clearly turn the other cheek and dismiss what’s happening. Find something you’re good at, be it singing, drawing, ANYTHING. Channel your emotion into that, cry when you have to and when you hear the whispers again, smile. Smile for you know better. You know you’re not what they say, and if all these people have to do with their day is whisper disgusting things, then how unhappy about their own lives are they?
They must surely be trying to find someway to feel better about themselves. And if they see you brought down by them, it will only help THEM. The best thing you can do is smile when you hear the scurrilous words, for then you show them you’re not effected. Look them in the damn eyes and smile. <3 You're never alone.
Thanks, that helped so much 🙂
I did that yesterday and the whispers didn’t stop, but I felt a million times better. I can’t wait until this high school hell is over and I can get out of here:D
thank you so much
I’m sorry to hear that, but things will change – there are nice people in the world and you’re bound to meet and befriend one.
Why did this person turn their back on you?
You sound as if you are near my age – it’s normal for people to act that way at this time. But it’ll change.
I hope things get better for you 🙂
People are just shit sometimes. I don’t know if it helps, but people do exist who would care and be a friend, it is just not always easy to find them among the crap people. But they do exist. It is especially messed up in school, it is a strange group of clicks and bullies and immaturity and the authority figures never seem to give a damn.
Try to hang on until you get out of there and listen to “the voice inside”s advice to focus in the meantime on what you love. If you plan to go to college it can be much much better, generally more mature attitude. Don’t let the bastards get you down.
I think I can speak for everyone on this website when I say that we don’t hate you. You’re welcome here. And you can talk to us.