Last week, I lost my best friend. We had an argument, a falling out, and I feel horrible. Every time Im near her I feel so much. Im sad, lonely, sorry, hurt and kind of irritated. She hardly talks to me anymore. Only in English class, when she needs help with the project we’ve been assigned.
Im hurt because she wont talk to me. Im lonely because she was my only true friend. I have some people I chat with, an occasional shopping buddy, but really Im very isolated. Im hurt also because I feel as if I mean nothing to her, as if she goes on carefree while I lay here bleeding, aching and lonely.
This woke me up to just how pathetic I am. I have no friends, Im no ace at academics, Im not an athlete, and Im ugly not to mention fat. The only people who I feel truly care about me arent people at all. My furball cats are the only ones who love me, and I realize how much of a loser I am because of it.
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I used to have a bestfriend who was the reason i got put into the mental hospital for depression then when i came back a week later she completely ignored me except in the 2 classes we have together in which one she sits right next to me. its extremely awkward and i cry almost everyday in class silently because she completely abandoned me. im really sorry your friend and you are getting along and i really hope you work it out. its the worst loosing the one person you can tell and share everything with. <3
I’m sorry that you fell out, have you tried to mend bridges to become friends again?
She’s probably as hurt as you are – it’s most likely a brave face to seem as if she’s happy even if she’s not. You sound like you’re around my age so I wouldn’t think too much of it. It might even sort itself out. Time is the best healer.
Believe me you’re not pathetic – most people think that of themselves.
What about family? If you have any – they definitely care about you.
I hope this helps 🙂