No matter how hard i try, no matter how hard i do to impress others, i failed. I push people away because i think it’s easier that way. But when i do, and realize that i need them in my life, and that their not here with me anymore right by my side, i break down. I’m an asshole. I act and put a smile on my face everyday to show the world that i’m fine. That i am happy. But i’m not. I just need someone to be there for me when i need them. To give me a hug and tell me that everything’s going to be ok. I’m honestly scared of being alone in this world. I’ve been alone for too long. And i don’t think i can be able to be strong anymore. I’m tired of staying strong, im tired of thinking positive. I honestly want to give up in life. Everything i do, everything i say, people judge me. And i hate that. School, grades, family, friends. They’re all stressing me out right now. Everything i do and try, i never succeed. i’m honestly a failure. And to be honest, there’s loads of bullshit that i go through, that i can’t vent out to a friend or a parent or anyone. but whatever right? Times will get better.. and hopefully it will.
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If you want to vent out to me… email should be next to my name.
Anything in particular bothering you? Which failures?
And why have you been alone so long?
If you want to talk to someone, we’re here.