So my birthday is tomorrow…the 4th of april. Actually it’s really depressing that I’m about to take my life. On the outside I’m that “wealthy girl” who lives the dream. Sure folks, my family is fucked up (My parents got divorced) and I DON’T have a friend who doesn’t call me a ***** for falling in love with a boy, who’s a dick anyway. He eventually broke up with me. So I had no friends, and my school only has 250 stundents. So there are “groups” in our school. And if you were a loner (Me) you can’t even get people to talk to you. So I’m always alone. Tomorrow’s my birthday, as I mentioned. And guess what? The only thing holding me back is my mom and dad. Sure my family is fucked up, but I love them. I don’t want to dissapoint them. So…I guess I will suffer, but I will suffer for my parents.
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Well it makes me sad to read this. Money cant by happiness the say, it looks like it can but i know enough “rich kids” who are horribly depressed. I’m sorry to hear that you don’t have a real friend…boys are dicks most of the time, trust me im a boy XD anyway i hope you don’t do it tomorrow….i know what you mean about a small school…mine was bigger than that cuz we had 900 ish…spread out across different grades from 6-12 so people stuck to their grade and then divided into the groups :/ urm…im not good at being human so i guess i hope you can hang in there? If not, peace bretherin for you are among our kind on here. Except me im just to damn ficked up to even belong here lol see there i go making it about me >.< hope you're okay person.
Birthdays can increase the depression. It was my birthday 28th march and I was depressed as sh*t. For this and the previous birthday I made the same wish: I WISH THIS WAS MY LAST BIRTHDAY. I wish I die from natural causes.
Like you, I don’t want to kill myself because of my parents. I love them very much and they were and still are very caring and good parents. If I kill them they will be devastated. Well I guess I will have to wait another 15-20 years to do it. Sigh……… Seems like so damn long…..
Don’t do it, you’ll find the light even if you’re in the darkest cave right now ♥