I tried, its too dull

Don’t try to start cutting, even if it helped. I am just getting out of it after 5 years and its really hard. I’ve got red scars on my arm and leg, so I can’t move on even though I want to. You should find other ways of dealing with your emotions, maybe meditate or write a poem. One thing I thought was great was splatter painting with red paint. You can take a nice relaxing bath after 🙂