When I go to school people never notice how fake I act. I always pretend to be happy and force a fake smile when all I want to do is cry. I would tell someone about my problems but I’m not close enough to someone to tell them. I don’t want to pretend anymore. It’s painful trying to act happy .
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Nobody is forcing to. Go ahead and display your genuine feelings. Who knows maybe you’ll be surprised when someone who sees you actually will care enough to ask what’s going on. That’s one thing I’ll never understand about the group on this website, they claim to want help or someone who cares enough, but so many of you fully admit that you hide and fake your feelings. Go ahead, look sad, or at least don’t bother pretending to smile. Maybe someone will ask what’s wrong, or even if they don’t, you’ll be saving the energy that it takes to pretend. But step 2 comes after someone asks what’s wrong, if you do the usual “nothing, I’m fine” like everyone else around here, then you still won’t have anyone to talk to.
I made a comment on this…in this society there is so much emphasis to just “be positive”. The truth is that a lot of the time pain is seen as whining. When we interviewees people for a job, our supervisor talked so much about people who can just come in to do work and not expect some chit chat. People say they care in order to appear kind but sharing pain is often frowned upon. Unfortunately mental lllness carries a stigma. It’s not that easy
I think glass sums it up perfectly.
If you are going to stand on a soapbox and proclaim your feelings, you are likely to encounter a similar response as someone in the street asking for charity. Generally, people don’t care unless you have something to offer and that could be anything. Rely on your family and close friends. Seeking out comfort from people you hardly know or even worse think you know will only end in despair.
I also act almost always. It really makes me feel bad afterwards and now I also realize it never helped me, indeed. I really hope that you will realize some day that your mask isn’t you and that it’s important to show the real you… Good luck hun!! <3