Yes noonoo12 I guess so. Although (for myself) I’ve known that loneliness is my worst problem, each day for the past 29 years.
I agree with the others’ worsts too. For myself I am not sure if they’d be lethal. Loneliness is my killer but as I understand things, I’ve “got to die of something anyway.”
I’ve pretty much only ever had the one person – and look how great that turned out. It’s stupid thinking how old I am, but essentially every person I meet now, I already find some insane fault with and it makes me resent them.
Aww I got lucky my high school girlfriend had these wild mood swings. It took awhile I was stuck on her then one day she let the cRaZy fly while I was walking her home.
I still had a ways to go. I think I remember wondering why she was being such a *****. Just then from clear outta nowhere a lil voice in my head says “Psst *ahem* you used-to be a lot happier remember before you got tangled up with Olive Oil? That ***** can fuck herself.”
I couldn’t believe it, pure genius. But yeah it’s tough to get that first derptard under our belts. The other derptards will be easier, you should try one or 2 before you drown yourself I read somewhere drowning really hurts like a ************.
I’ve had enough thanks haha. All the boys/men I’ve encountered have all eventually turned out to be complete dicks. Some immediately. I’ve actually had two. Second one killed himself though – so that didn’t last long.
The thing about drowning is that I can’t back out. I can’t swim, so once I’m in. That’s it.
There’s no getting out 😀
And I never said it was intentional – accidental is the key word. 😉
I thought your country had its own ocean (aren’t you surrounded by water) how can you not know how to swim? Oh I get it, you think swimming is difficult or counter-intuitive like riding a bike the first time. Spoiler alert: you can just flap your arms like a bird and you’ll stay afloat. You all mine baby.
Yeah I’m from England. I haven’t been to a swimming pool since I was 7. Haven’t been to a beach since I was 9. I’ve never been taken to learn apart from when I went with school 6 times when I was 7. But I never picked anything up.
I’d get tired eventually – and go down. Accidentally of course.
“You all mine baby”? What do you mean? In what way?
I’d still die 😛
Loving the casual racism, but no, I don’t have a cow outside my window. I just have the brown skin and the heritage. And there are mainly Buffaloes in India. Not as many cows I don’t think.
How does this change things? And what are things….?
It’s weird you’re nice. Like I’d die with you, sorta. I’ll be under my bed with my jars though I can’t drown. What’s racist I thought everyone liked cows. I thought of you riding an elephant at first like Xena princess warrior but that seemed a bit grandiose. Yeah I gotta die soon too this is bullshit.
Why is it weird that I’m nice? 🙁
I kind of have my death plans laid out – always room for a stranger but it’d freak you out what I had in mind considering you’re probably 30 years old. I’m in the process of looking – the other person bailed early.
Why can’t you drown by the way?
I’m more likely to be on an elephant than have a cow seeing as I’m terrified of them.
November might work if I botch my attempt. Yeah I’m old. Probably I’d be a drooling veggie if I don’t get a clean kill too. This site’s changing people are using their full names and phone numbers. I’m getting kinda restless I got ants in my pants now.
Aren’t you at uni I dunno I was totally wrong about the elephant.. Are you 20 maybe? BTW I cannot drown because now I’m prejudice that I read somewhere it hurts a lot. Smart girl don’t put your info up. Maybe I was hungry I get some paranoia I don’t know for sure why I’m getting fussy. I’ll come back later I hope you have a nice day noonoo. 🙂
Derp ibba thip mm yer a young lady. Yeah I saw your picture in the media library by one that i uploaded but no i didnt see your first post. Thanks noonoo12 oh that 12 part kinda makes sense now.
Life is weird when I was 13 they said “come fly the friendly skies with us.” Nowadays they say “take shoes off no liquids.” Everything sucks I forget sometimes how much it sucks for younger folks too.
You guys are tough I’d def ctb like I wanted when I was 13. There wasn’t much but a dying hope then now there’s jack squat. What with your derptards and all now I’m a bit sad for you new-new sincerely your all smart and pretty.. Ill hafta go see maybe I need to po0p again.
The 12 part means nothing – just a number.
And I’m slightly surprised that you didn’t declare my “problems” to be purely based on hormones.
The retards are taking over 😀 Hahaha.
Doesn’t matter anymore if you’re nice or even have a shred of intelligence. No one cares haha. You’ve got to have “swag” and be all “yolo”. Fuck that though.
It reminds me that depression is a disease. And it affects all people. So much for quitting smoking. I’m honored and humbled though new-new. Knowing you a lil better now is kinda inspiring it makes me think that I shouldn’t ctb because of your struggle. Things have been so weird my new med is effexor but I can’t take it anymore. My smoking cessation and not eating for days is driving me straight up the wall. Aww you’re so nice and you put that your kinky bf jumped ship too there.
Now I’m a little mixed up I can’t even go #2. I read the suicide news sites they have teens sometimes I always think “that’s courage” because I’m 41 now and I know I should’ve killed myself when the thoughts first came. I couldn’t instead I did everything they told me but I didn’t have big dreams or even wants really. Now I’m locked into a spiral of reducing my needs as well seeing opposite shrinking and vying for nonexistence. God bless you noonoo12 and AtTheEnd both.
I don’t think it can be classed as a struggle – many people are way worse off than me.
It wasn’t the kinky one – not to seem like a complete dick, but I wish it was.
Why can’t you take it anymore?
And why haven’t you been eating?
I wouldn’t class it as courage – rather stupidity and rash decisions. These teenagers are usually depressed over some stupid crap like me and the ones with actual reason to be, are few and far between. Those are the ones who are at the end of their rope. None of the people who commit suicide have genuine courage – that’s bullshit. No offense. Most of the time it’s cowardice – an inability to face their problems and actually deal with life.
You’re old – you’re close to the finish line. No point in giving up. Think about it – you have no wants or dreams. But other people do. Think about all the good you could do for other people. You might even realise your own dreams this way.
Nah. That’s probably wishful thinking.
You must want sexual or emotional contact or something to that affect right?
I’m not a believer of god. Or any greater being for that matter.
I don’t think you are either – but who knows?
Meh. All else fails – see you in November coitus 🙂
That is if you decide to take the easy way out.
The worst feeling imaginable is food poisoning. I bought a tainted burrito off a roach coach once (a catering truck) and I vomited out of both ends for about 24 hours.
Loneliness and heartbreak don’t hold a candle to chronic diarrhea & puking.
Recently actually – the tightness in your gut and the burning in your asshole is nothing compared to loneliness.
Try gorge walking while holding in the vomit and shit that’s just waiting to burst out. Now that – that was bad.
I ended up throwing up in a fucking cove on the side of a waterfall.
I tainted what once was a beautiful work of nature.
Loneliness isn’t so bad. It only hurts if you depend on others for your own happiness.
If you’re comfortable with yourself you don’t need other people. Diarrhea comes from within- with or without a significant other it’s all in you waiting to come out in all of its noxious glory.
Well first one ex-wife left me, then another. My life story is pretty simple. I’ve been watching things get more difficult for most people since the mid 70’s. 9 out 10 people would probably call me a pessimist, but the facts that shape my “pessimism” come from regularly updated reports from our Census, the USDA the Federal banks, best sellers and other widley acclaimed generally-accepted sources like the World3 model Nature and/or NatGeo.
Anyway the upshot is that I just never had the nerve to have kids. I was given up for adoption at birth. The Vietnam conflict was winding down but people were still worried about getting drafted. My adopted parents told me right away that they wanted a Vietnamese kid but some other couple got him, so my parents got stuck with me. For discipline and motivation, my mom would threaten each day to take me back to the adoption agency like I was a defective toaster or something. All water under the bridge but since we’ve learned that that’s a time when attachment is supposed-to happen in infants.
Poor attachment will kill most primates not just human beings. They proved it with monkeys in the 70s and 80s but barely anyone knew. The adoption agency thought I was half-black but since then I’ve learned that I am native american. I’ve never seen anyone that I’m blood related to. I accept the global collapse as obvious. I perceive my world and respond to it in a distorted kaleidoscopic manner that makes sense to neither myself or others. I’m the last in my line and it’s quite a pickle.
If you depend on others for your happiness, expect a life filled with disappointment.
Sorry, but that’s how it is. You can’t control what other people say, think or do. At the risk of stating the obvious, if you can find a way to be fulfilled without relying on others you’re way ahead in the game.
Diarreah goes away eventually, that’s true. People take a few more flushes to get rid of.
That is quite a pickle indeed.
Why did your wives leave you?
You know that ignorance is bliss right? Stop keeping up to date with these things and screw everyone else. Live for you. Do what you want to do.
Your adoptive parents sound like dicks. No offense. They just wanted the Vietnamese kid to show to their neighbours or whatever. I think they got a pretty good deal. You turned out seemingly well read. But also emotionally detached. Their fault.
Do you want to meet anyone you’re blood related to..?
And do you resent them for giving you up to your strict-ish parents?
The global collapse is not something I’m well read on – I’m glad it’s that way. As I said before – ignorance is bliss.
I don’t quite understand the way you perceive the world though…? What do you mean? And do you like LSD?
Meh, the disappointment has already begun. I think I’ll stick with it though – I’ve noticed I have a knack for manipulation. May seem dickish, but it helps me avoid any pain.
I could probably alienate a person easily. Then they’ll be eagerly competing to get rid of me instead. Less work.
I was unaware of the training process.
It has dampened my spirits on the road to becoming the crazy cat lady off The Simpsons.
Maybe it will take longer than expected.
No problem – I’ll begin training a few years early. 😉
Diarrhea would kill me if I had that all the time. I think loneliness is the #1 killer though. I don’t do drugs or even drink alcohol it’s been 14 months. LSD doesn’t do anything for me I tried it 4 times in groups everyone else was tripping their balls off nothing for me though. Other things worked like shrooms ecstacy and coke but I only flirted with them for a few weeks they each had side effects that brought their balance negative for me.
Weed was a good one by far the crutch I relied on most it never seemed to ’cause trouble but I’d smoke all day on the sofa so eventually I quit. Then I was drinking a case of beer each day and I’ve been a recovering alcoholic for 14 months. Your comment about being close to the “finish line” is how I feel. Satisfied and tired too but also without any destination beyond the finish line. Don’t wanna toot my own horn but I’ve had a good life, one that many would probably envy.
My ex-wives were each good women. They probably wanted a good father for their future kids. The weird thing is, that when we become enlightened then the “emotionally detached” is not us. Those in blissful ignorance, those in denial or the other stages of grief: they are the truly emotionally detached. I’ve been through the stages of grief so I accept that each day my consumption is causing another species to become extinct. I know that I am killing the earth, bankrupting your generation and I’ve been on an Army tank in the desert to help prop up my country’s Superpower status; which is just a pretty word for empire.
Training Process: Expecting to find happiness through others and being disappointed time and time again. Eventually you give up and 1) become an unhappy lesbian 2) Adopt a stable of cats or dogs.
The lesbian route isn’t bad, but they’ll let you down too (usually). Dogs are independent and you need leadership skills to be a good pack leader. Cats are dumb and easy – they’re the perfect pet for failed dictators. Just feed ’em, keep ’em warm, give ’em a place to sleep and crap. They’ll keep you company and take up space, sort of like most dependents.
Have you ever tried Ketamine?
I’m sure every drug has bad side effects – even weed. It accentuates the effects of depression unless you’re having it in a continued and controlled dosage. Which you probably wont be, because you’re a stoner. And all stoners do is lie and getting baked all day as you said before.
Alcohol has never had any attractive features for me to be honest. But well done for keeping on the so-called wagon for so long. I’d have given up by the first month mark.
As celebration. Haha.
What do you mean by a destination after the finish line?
You sound as if you’ve experienced a lot. I’m sure I read a comment of yours referencing yourself as a homeless veteran?
I’m pretty sure the USA will always be a superpower. Oil and money baby 🙂
I doubt that can be attributed to just one person though – so who cares?
No one actually thinks about the effect they have on anything. Screws shit up it does.
That’s how most people justify it anyway – “one person wont make much of a difference”. 😀
By the way I’m sorry about your relationships not panning out. Must be hard. 🙁
What makes you think you wouldn’t have been a good father?
Or become a musician. Or a dog whisperer. You’re what, 13?
Geezus. You shouldn’t even be on this site. You haven’t had a chance to properly fuck up your life yet. Come back in 10 to 20 years (unless you’re a serial killer). Then you can come back sooner.
Cats are awesome self-cleaning rodent seeking dogs. Dogs are great too but they need to shit outside. Yeah I don’t have long term goals now. Yes I’m a homeless veteran. Now the VA helps me but the only goal that I can think of (to help others a tiny bit) is to kill myself as soon as I grow a pair.
Thank god for this place and the others here (loneliness is a problem for me) when my 2nd ex-wife left me I lived by myself and started drinking myself into oblivion each day to avoid insanity. It’s weird you get clean and sober then there’s this major depression and/or mid-life crisis taking an unending steamy dump into your mouth. It’s unsightly.
I don’t know you newnew twelve. True.
But being an angsty teen with a pimple on your nose isn’t reason enough to pull the trigger. Sorry if that sounds judgmental, but I’ve read enough stories here to be a bit wary. My titties are floppy but I’m not gonna end it just yet ’cause of that.
Cats are an animal version of me – lazy, useless and unproductive. At least with a dog you can train them to detect cancer and hump the leg of that neighbour you don’t like.
That’s a pretty shitty goal. You could go backpacking or do something worthwhile. How does it help others if you kill yourself?
So she just up and left? Without any warning?
Where did you get the money to drink every day?
And that’s why people like drugs and booze. You get to avoid your problems and just lose the ability to think.
I got some vivid imagery from that last sentence. Thanks a lot.
It’s nothing to do with that. Have you even read my posts?
There are quite a few things I’d change. The biggest few I haven’t posted about in case people I know find this site.
Hey Coitus;
My worst fear is being me. So far I’ve done well beating this fear. I’m still here. I’m alive and talking to overseas teenagers while drunk & listening to BR. ~I’m a winner!!! How are you Conjugal?
That’s hilarious Cosmic Jugs are you drunk right now? That’s cool noonoo12’s probably in the k-hole, rolling on e or somehow otherwise tripping her balls off. So you two are aspiring switch hitterz too. Damn this site is a goddamn trip. 🙂
@ Conjugal; It’s possible I’m slightly inebriated, but that’s neither here nor there.
You like The Cult and Duran Duran. You’re a child of the 80’s. Kewl.
Does life have any intrinsic value? Why were we even conceived? IDK.
Who the fuck reads this shit anyways?
I’m drinking philosophical beer.
your right. No one reads this shit ‘cept for suicidal fucks with bad taste in music. By the time they’re dead the dentist/elevator never got the sheet music.
Bweahh. Who cares. Brush your teeth.
Wow. I don’t remember writing the last 4 or 5 comments, I was shnozzled. The self medication regimen works fine as long as I stay away from all communication devices.
Note to self: Do NOT turn on the computer or phone after the 14th beer.
@ coitus & noonoo12; Kindly disregard anything I said that was offensive. I’ll buy you both a couple of shots in the afterlife (if there’s a bar there. Please bring your ID). No offense meant to you two. ~ Peace.
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Feeling not needed.
Guilt
unloved and inconsequential to all
Loneliness.
Loneliness
@coitus
Are you mimicking my answer…?
A bit of a hard one lol, but I’d say being unwanted, since it has all the elements named above
Yes noonoo12 I guess so. Although (for myself) I’ve known that loneliness is my worst problem, each day for the past 29 years.
I agree with the others’ worsts too. For myself I am not sure if they’d be lethal. Loneliness is my killer but as I understand things, I’ve “got to die of something anyway.”
Anger/hatred
Not being loved by the one person you love the most
Waking up every morning to the pain of my existence.
For me, it’s the people you love and trust the most just backing out on you.
For me it’s being thought about as crazy when you’re desperately trying to convince yourself you’re not.
@coitus
I’ve pretty much only ever had the one person – and look how great that turned out. It’s stupid thinking how old I am, but essentially every person I meet now, I already find some insane fault with and it makes me resent them.
I think I’ll die by accidental drowning.
Aww I got lucky my high school girlfriend had these wild mood swings. It took awhile I was stuck on her then one day she let the cRaZy fly while I was walking her home.
I still had a ways to go. I think I remember wondering why she was being such a *****. Just then from clear outta nowhere a lil voice in my head says “Psst *ahem* you used-to be a lot happier remember before you got tangled up with Olive Oil? That ***** can fuck herself.”
I couldn’t believe it, pure genius. But yeah it’s tough to get that first derptard under our belts. The other derptards will be easier, you should try one or 2 before you drown yourself I read somewhere drowning really hurts like a ************.
@coitus
I’ve had enough thanks haha. All the boys/men I’ve encountered have all eventually turned out to be complete dicks. Some immediately. I’ve actually had two. Second one killed himself though – so that didn’t last long.
The thing about drowning is that I can’t back out. I can’t swim, so once I’m in. That’s it.
There’s no getting out 😀
And I never said it was intentional – accidental is the key word. 😉
I thought your country had its own ocean (aren’t you surrounded by water) how can you not know how to swim? Oh I get it, you think swimming is difficult or counter-intuitive like riding a bike the first time. Spoiler alert: you can just flap your arms like a bird and you’ll stay afloat. You all mine baby.
@coitus
Yeah I’m from England. I haven’t been to a swimming pool since I was 7. Haven’t been to a beach since I was 9. I’ve never been taken to learn apart from when I went with school 6 times when I was 7. But I never picked anything up.
I’d get tired eventually – and go down. Accidentally of course.
“You all mine baby”? What do you mean? In what way?
I’d still die 😛
Yeah you’ll get the hang of it. In my mind I imagined that you were in India with a pet cow outside your window named Bessie. But this changes things.
@coitus
Loving the casual racism, but no, I don’t have a cow outside my window. I just have the brown skin and the heritage. And there are mainly Buffaloes in India. Not as many cows I don’t think.
How does this change things? And what are things….?
It’s weird you’re nice. Like I’d die with you, sorta. I’ll be under my bed with my jars though I can’t drown. What’s racist I thought everyone liked cows. I thought of you riding an elephant at first like Xena princess warrior but that seemed a bit grandiose. Yeah I gotta die soon too this is bullshit.
@coitus
Why is it weird that I’m nice? 🙁
I kind of have my death plans laid out – always room for a stranger but it’d freak you out what I had in mind considering you’re probably 30 years old. I’m in the process of looking – the other person bailed early.
Why can’t you drown by the way?
I’m more likely to be on an elephant than have a cow seeing as I’m terrified of them.
I was thinking November 😀
November might work if I botch my attempt. Yeah I’m old. Probably I’d be a drooling veggie if I don’t get a clean kill too. This site’s changing people are using their full names and phone numbers. I’m getting kinda restless I got ants in my pants now.
When did you plan to have your attempt?
You know how old I am though right?
And yeah I’m not going to give out my full name because I come up when I’m googled. I don’t have a phone – no phone number. 🙂
And why are you getting restless?
Aren’t you at uni I dunno I was totally wrong about the elephant.. Are you 20 maybe? BTW I cannot drown because now I’m prejudice that I read somewhere it hurts a lot. Smart girl don’t put your info up. Maybe I was hungry I get some paranoia I don’t know for sure why I’m getting fussy. I’ll come back later I hope you have a nice day noonoo. 🙂
@coitus
Uh oh….
I thought you read my first post because you commented on the picture. You can’t tell how old I am from the picture alone?
Read the first sentence of my first post.
I reckon you’ll shit bricks.
You have a nice day too…
Derp ibba thip mm yer a young lady. Yeah I saw your picture in the media library by one that i uploaded but no i didnt see your first post. Thanks noonoo12 oh that 12 part kinda makes sense now.
Life is weird when I was 13 they said “come fly the friendly skies with us.” Nowadays they say “take shoes off no liquids.” Everything sucks I forget sometimes how much it sucks for younger folks too.
You guys are tough I’d def ctb like I wanted when I was 13. There wasn’t much but a dying hope then now there’s jack squat. What with your derptards and all now I’m a bit sad for you new-new sincerely your all smart and pretty.. Ill hafta go see maybe I need to po0p again.
@coitus
The 12 part means nothing – just a number.
And I’m slightly surprised that you didn’t declare my “problems” to be purely based on hormones.
The retards are taking over 😀 Hahaha.
Doesn’t matter anymore if you’re nice or even have a shred of intelligence. No one cares haha. You’ve got to have “swag” and be all “yolo”. Fuck that though.
Have a nice shit.
A random number in your name?! Tisk tisk our usernames should have a lot of meaning in every part of it ;c
“Waking up every morning to the pain of my existence.”
It reminds me that depression is a disease. And it affects all people. So much for quitting smoking. I’m honored and humbled though new-new. Knowing you a lil better now is kinda inspiring it makes me think that I shouldn’t ctb because of your struggle. Things have been so weird my new med is effexor but I can’t take it anymore. My smoking cessation and not eating for days is driving me straight up the wall. Aww you’re so nice and you put that your kinky bf jumped ship too there.
Now I’m a little mixed up I can’t even go #2. I read the suicide news sites they have teens sometimes I always think “that’s courage” because I’m 41 now and I know I should’ve killed myself when the thoughts first came. I couldn’t instead I did everything they told me but I didn’t have big dreams or even wants really. Now I’m locked into a spiral of reducing my needs as well seeing opposite shrinking and vying for nonexistence. God bless you noonoo12 and AtTheEnd both.
@coitus
I don’t think it can be classed as a struggle – many people are way worse off than me.
It wasn’t the kinky one – not to seem like a complete dick, but I wish it was.
Why can’t you take it anymore?
And why haven’t you been eating?
I wouldn’t class it as courage – rather stupidity and rash decisions. These teenagers are usually depressed over some stupid crap like me and the ones with actual reason to be, are few and far between. Those are the ones who are at the end of their rope. None of the people who commit suicide have genuine courage – that’s bullshit. No offense. Most of the time it’s cowardice – an inability to face their problems and actually deal with life.
You’re old – you’re close to the finish line. No point in giving up. Think about it – you have no wants or dreams. But other people do. Think about all the good you could do for other people. You might even realise your own dreams this way.
Nah. That’s probably wishful thinking.
You must want sexual or emotional contact or something to that affect right?
I’m not a believer of god. Or any greater being for that matter.
I don’t think you are either – but who knows?
Meh. All else fails – see you in November coitus 🙂
That is if you decide to take the easy way out.
The worst feeling imaginable is food poisoning. I bought a tainted burrito off a roach coach once (a catering truck) and I vomited out of both ends for about 24 hours.
Loneliness and heartbreak don’t hold a candle to chronic diarrhea & puking.
@CosmicBlip
Nah I’ve had food poisoning.
Recently actually – the tightness in your gut and the burning in your asshole is nothing compared to loneliness.
Try gorge walking while holding in the vomit and shit that’s just waiting to burst out. Now that – that was bad.
I ended up throwing up in a fucking cove on the side of a waterfall.
I tainted what once was a beautiful work of nature.
Still got nothing on loneliness.
Loneliness isn’t so bad. It only hurts if you depend on others for your own happiness.
If you’re comfortable with yourself you don’t need other people. Diarrhea comes from within- with or without a significant other it’s all in you waiting to come out in all of its noxious glory.
Well first one ex-wife left me, then another. My life story is pretty simple. I’ve been watching things get more difficult for most people since the mid 70’s. 9 out 10 people would probably call me a pessimist, but the facts that shape my “pessimism” come from regularly updated reports from our Census, the USDA the Federal banks, best sellers and other widley acclaimed generally-accepted sources like the World3 model Nature and/or NatGeo.
Anyway the upshot is that I just never had the nerve to have kids. I was given up for adoption at birth. The Vietnam conflict was winding down but people were still worried about getting drafted. My adopted parents told me right away that they wanted a Vietnamese kid but some other couple got him, so my parents got stuck with me. For discipline and motivation, my mom would threaten each day to take me back to the adoption agency like I was a defective toaster or something. All water under the bridge but since we’ve learned that that’s a time when attachment is supposed-to happen in infants.
Poor attachment will kill most primates not just human beings. They proved it with monkeys in the 70s and 80s but barely anyone knew. The adoption agency thought I was half-black but since then I’ve learned that I am native american. I’ve never seen anyone that I’m blood related to. I accept the global collapse as obvious. I perceive my world and respond to it in a distorted kaleidoscopic manner that makes sense to neither myself or others. I’m the last in my line and it’s quite a pickle.
@CosmicBlip
As a human – I do depend on others for my happiness. You can’t get by without depending on somebody – no matter who it is.
Did it ever occur to you that the people who say their worst feeling is loneliness, may not be comfortable with themselves?
Diarrhoea is also short term. As opposed to most people’s loneliness, which can last years.
Plus diarrhoea clears out your system. Fresh and all that crap.
If you depend on others for your happiness, expect a life filled with disappointment.
Sorry, but that’s how it is. You can’t control what other people say, think or do. At the risk of stating the obvious, if you can find a way to be fulfilled without relying on others you’re way ahead in the game.
Diarreah goes away eventually, that’s true. People take a few more flushes to get rid of.
@coitus
That is quite a pickle indeed.
Why did your wives leave you?
You know that ignorance is bliss right? Stop keeping up to date with these things and screw everyone else. Live for you. Do what you want to do.
Your adoptive parents sound like dicks. No offense. They just wanted the Vietnamese kid to show to their neighbours or whatever. I think they got a pretty good deal. You turned out seemingly well read. But also emotionally detached. Their fault.
Do you want to meet anyone you’re blood related to..?
And do you resent them for giving you up to your strict-ish parents?
The global collapse is not something I’m well read on – I’m glad it’s that way. As I said before – ignorance is bliss.
I don’t quite understand the way you perceive the world though…? What do you mean? And do you like LSD?
Sperm bank. You whack it – they pack it.
@CosmicBlip
Meh, the disappointment has already begun. I think I’ll stick with it though – I’ve noticed I have a knack for manipulation. May seem dickish, but it helps me avoid any pain.
I could probably alienate a person easily. Then they’ll be eagerly competing to get rid of me instead. Less work.
When you’re 50, be sure and tell your three cats all about it. They’ll be impressed with your life model. 🙂
No offense
@CosmicBlip
I hate cats. 😀
Plus I don’t plan to live that long.
Mock me all you want. Haha 😛
It’s all good.
You sound like a cat lady in training. 🙂
@CosmicBlip
I was unaware of the training process.
It has dampened my spirits on the road to becoming the crazy cat lady off The Simpsons.
Maybe it will take longer than expected.
No problem – I’ll begin training a few years early. 😉
Diarrhea would kill me if I had that all the time. I think loneliness is the #1 killer though. I don’t do drugs or even drink alcohol it’s been 14 months. LSD doesn’t do anything for me I tried it 4 times in groups everyone else was tripping their balls off nothing for me though. Other things worked like shrooms ecstacy and coke but I only flirted with them for a few weeks they each had side effects that brought their balance negative for me.
Weed was a good one by far the crutch I relied on most it never seemed to ’cause trouble but I’d smoke all day on the sofa so eventually I quit. Then I was drinking a case of beer each day and I’ve been a recovering alcoholic for 14 months. Your comment about being close to the “finish line” is how I feel. Satisfied and tired too but also without any destination beyond the finish line. Don’t wanna toot my own horn but I’ve had a good life, one that many would probably envy.
My ex-wives were each good women. They probably wanted a good father for their future kids. The weird thing is, that when we become enlightened then the “emotionally detached” is not us. Those in blissful ignorance, those in denial or the other stages of grief: they are the truly emotionally detached. I’ve been through the stages of grief so I accept that each day my consumption is causing another species to become extinct. I know that I am killing the earth, bankrupting your generation and I’ve been on an Army tank in the desert to help prop up my country’s Superpower status; which is just a pretty word for empire.
Training Process: Expecting to find happiness through others and being disappointed time and time again. Eventually you give up and 1) become an unhappy lesbian 2) Adopt a stable of cats or dogs.
The lesbian route isn’t bad, but they’ll let you down too (usually). Dogs are independent and you need leadership skills to be a good pack leader. Cats are dumb and easy – they’re the perfect pet for failed dictators. Just feed ’em, keep ’em warm, give ’em a place to sleep and crap. They’ll keep you company and take up space, sort of like most dependents.
@coitus
Have you ever tried Ketamine?
I’m sure every drug has bad side effects – even weed. It accentuates the effects of depression unless you’re having it in a continued and controlled dosage. Which you probably wont be, because you’re a stoner. And all stoners do is lie and getting baked all day as you said before.
Alcohol has never had any attractive features for me to be honest. But well done for keeping on the so-called wagon for so long. I’d have given up by the first month mark.
As celebration. Haha.
What do you mean by a destination after the finish line?
You sound as if you’ve experienced a lot. I’m sure I read a comment of yours referencing yourself as a homeless veteran?
I’m pretty sure the USA will always be a superpower. Oil and money baby 🙂
I doubt that can be attributed to just one person though – so who cares?
No one actually thinks about the effect they have on anything. Screws shit up it does.
That’s how most people justify it anyway – “one person wont make much of a difference”. 😀
By the way I’m sorry about your relationships not panning out. Must be hard. 🙁
What makes you think you wouldn’t have been a good father?
@CosmicBlip
I’m terrified of cats and dogs. And unsure of my sexuality considering I haven’t fucked a girl yet.
First guy I was actually sure of… didn’t quite work out. Neither did the second. So I’m giving up early haha. 🙂
Maybe I will try to get over the fears. Actually live out my days with an animal at least. Seeing how it wont be a person. Haha 😀
Or become a musician. Or a dog whisperer. You’re what, 13?
Geezus. You shouldn’t even be on this site. You haven’t had a chance to properly fuck up your life yet. Come back in 10 to 20 years (unless you’re a serial killer). Then you can come back sooner.
@CosmicBlip
Who are you to determine that?
I didn’t think I had to “fuck up” my life “properly” to be here haha.
You don’t know anything about me 🙂
Cats are awesome self-cleaning rodent seeking dogs. Dogs are great too but they need to shit outside. Yeah I don’t have long term goals now. Yes I’m a homeless veteran. Now the VA helps me but the only goal that I can think of (to help others a tiny bit) is to kill myself as soon as I grow a pair.
Thank god for this place and the others here (loneliness is a problem for me) when my 2nd ex-wife left me I lived by myself and started drinking myself into oblivion each day to avoid insanity. It’s weird you get clean and sober then there’s this major depression and/or mid-life crisis taking an unending steamy dump into your mouth. It’s unsightly.
I don’t know you newnew twelve. True.
But being an angsty teen with a pimple on your nose isn’t reason enough to pull the trigger. Sorry if that sounds judgmental, but I’ve read enough stories here to be a bit wary. My titties are floppy but I’m not gonna end it just yet ’cause of that.
@coitus
Cats are an animal version of me – lazy, useless and unproductive. At least with a dog you can train them to detect cancer and hump the leg of that neighbour you don’t like.
That’s a pretty shitty goal. You could go backpacking or do something worthwhile. How does it help others if you kill yourself?
So she just up and left? Without any warning?
Where did you get the money to drink every day?
And that’s why people like drugs and booze. You get to avoid your problems and just lose the ability to think.
I got some vivid imagery from that last sentence. Thanks a lot.
@CosmicBlip
It’s nothing to do with that. Have you even read my posts?
There are quite a few things I’d change. The biggest few I haven’t posted about in case people I know find this site.
You have floppy tits?
Cosmic Tits I always thought you were I guy. Maybe it’s your phallic shaped avatar. Sweet Jesus I have no idea WTF is going on.
I’ve quit this site momentarily. On music mode now. Me and my floppy tits like Bad Religion. 🙂
@CosmicBlip
Some people like floppy tits… I think? 🙂
Uh yeah. Rapists in retirement homes.
@CosmicBlip
People with floppy boob fetishes also like them 😉
Too bad boob jobs are expensive.
Get back to me when your boobs sag down to your knees.
What’s your worst feeling? is it diarrea? What’s your story, Cosmic Knockers?
@CosmicBlip
You have to have big boobs for them to sag down that low.
And be about 50.
😀
Well, your cats will be happy. 🙂
They won’t have to stray far for milk.
@CosmicBlip
It’s saddening how accurate that is.
Hey Coitus;
My worst fear is being me. So far I’ve done well beating this fear. I’m still here. I’m alive and talking to overseas teenagers while drunk & listening to BR. ~I’m a winner!!! How are you Conjugal?
That’s hilarious Cosmic Jugs are you drunk right now? That’s cool noonoo12’s probably in the k-hole, rolling on e or somehow otherwise tripping her balls off. So you two are aspiring switch hitterz too. Damn this site is a goddamn trip. 🙂
I only ever k-bomb in the bath.
I’m highly disturbed that you think a 13 year old is taking illegal substances at 2:16am. :O
M-cat is quite good actually.
What are “aspiring switch hitterz”?
@ Conjugal; It’s possible I’m slightly inebriated, but that’s neither here nor there.
You like The Cult and Duran Duran. You’re a child of the 80’s. Kewl.
Does life have any intrinsic value? Why were we even conceived? IDK.
Who the fuck reads this shit anyways?
I’m drinking philosophical beer.
I can’t post a comment here this fucker is jammed or something.
not knowing who or what you are
coitus; remove your finger from your anus, place it on the keyboard.
Let your thoughts flow, like the wind….
It worked. I’ll be damned. Cosmic Bazzongas you must be a freakin’ wizard or something.
Nope no one reads this shit.
“Duplicate comment detected; it looks as though you’ve already said that!”
That’s what I get. I think that I broke it. My finger’s out this time.
your right. No one reads this shit ‘cept for suicidal fucks with bad taste in music. By the time they’re dead the dentist/elevator never got the sheet music.
Bweahh. Who cares. Brush your teeth.
Well.
I’m going to go with….being actively suicidal.
Kindly put up a picture of your tits. Thank You.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pVVzidSdRXE No one cares, but here’s Timmy from Rancid. He got a tattoo on his old bald head.
feeling like a failure to everyone
Total highlight of my morning….reading the whole saggy books conversation. Fantastical!
Wow. I don’t remember writing the last 4 or 5 comments, I was shnozzled. The self medication regimen works fine as long as I stay away from all communication devices.
Note to self: Do NOT turn on the computer or phone after the 14th beer.
@ coitus & noonoo12; Kindly disregard anything I said that was offensive. I’ll buy you both a couple of shots in the afterlife (if there’s a bar there. Please bring your ID). No offense meant to you two. ~ Peace.