Hello people my name is jacques I am 17 years old and since iv been in grade 6 I have taken its every day I have been at points where I held a knife to my own throat I have resorted to drugs and I don’t know what to do any more at the beginning of this year a guy was annoying me I started to chase him and saw a brick one the floor I hurled it at him and it struck his leg that was the first time I had ever stood up for myself he has since then threatened me this guy is about 20cm taller than me as I am not the tallest in school. Â So lately iv been living in fear its been driving me crazy I wish I could fight back and the thing is I probably could but he has a older brother so iv taken it day for day but I can’t anymore and im not some ***** that will go tell my teacher… so basically right now im waiting for the day that he and his brother walk up to me and probably punch me into a coma I would definitely fight back and probably land punches well but I know in the end his brother will jump in I will be done……so now iv come over that same state of feeling that im usless and a coward I have started gyming and bulking up but It has not helped my self confidence I have gone back into drugs and I have started drinking as it helps me to escape the fear…. I need guidance as I would not tell my parents about this if anyone is willing to just give me advice on what to do
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Get off the drugs, carry on with your Gym regime and learn some self defence. These people sound like nothing more than bullies, and the very fact that you’ve stood up for yourself once will give them reason to pause before they decide to lay a hand on you again.
You say that you’re living in fear, don’t. If they haven’t bothered you by now, they’ve probably moved on from the situation. Bullies only pick fights they know they can win. You’ve made yourself look somewhat stronger than they had anticipated and may now leave you be.
And as for being a coward, a brave man can only be brave if he is first afraid. Otherwise where was the bravery?
I hope everything works out for you, you’re still young and have much to experience in life. Take care. =]
I really liked youre comment and will always remember the line a brave man can only be brave if he is first afraid otherwise where is the bravery im really glad about my post its nice to know there are people out there who do care thank you so much
You need to practice self love, stay away from drinking and drugs for at least a few months. Wait until you’re not in emotional turmoil to resort to outside influences.
You’re on the right track by writing it down and asking for help. That’s really really good. You should talk to a school counselor and consider doing some self guided learning regarding anger management.
Thank you for your comment as well I will definitely be dropping the drinking and drugs thanks
You’re most welcome, Jacques. Always remember there are people out there who care, and that you’re never alone.
I can help you connect with a group of teens with similar challenges. There are some great people in charge. E-mail me at recoveringfromthat@gmail.com if you want to hear more. Its completely non-religous and encourages you not to feel powerless, but to realize ONLY you have the power to make choices for yourself and your future. I wish I had known about them growing into my young adulthood.
You’re getting some good feedback here. Way to flesh out resources!
About the boys: Hire (do homework for) the meanest dude in school. He’ll make sure nothing happens to ya! (Sorry…had to find something to laugh at here!)