So over the summer i tried a drug called dmt. Since then i became extremely psycotic and was in the hospital 6 times in 4 months. I am no longer dissociative but am now left with unwanted thoughts and no real thoughts of my own. I haven’t laughed in so long. I tried suicide with pills but obviously that didn’t work. I have a job but don’t talk to no one and i have a gf that cares so much about me. Im also dealing with suicidal ideation but im not ready to give up. what bothers me the most is my lack to have conversations. We are all social creatures except me. It sucks to have scrambled thoughts.