tired

My life has sucked from day one. My childhood watching my mom being beat too near death. My being beat as a child and teen . . My mom so depressed she can do nothing . . ive been raped shot, im tired of this life. I cant cope. the person im dating cant relate to me at all I am so all alone. I will kill myself tonight. I have sliced both of my wrists before. I will make sure I go deep enough tonight.