There’s only a small number of things that make us feel completely attached to the world around us,
So much time convincing myself that the people around me will be better without me,
A lot can happen If you stand on the shoulders of greatness,
Everything that encompasses the opposite of greatness, my shoulders are not worth standing on,
Lost in this, but found perhaps by accepting that now I can be free,
The only way to stop my mind, is to turn it off.

Everyone I come accross is affected somehow, and it’s never a positive, it may feel like it to start,
There’s poison in me, a virus that’s out of my control, it’s contagious, and spreads too easily,
Dark and hidden, wanting to be expressed, the search for what you want is a long and dangerous path,
You can’t find what you’re looking for in me without getting hurt along the way,
I can’t keep hurting people without meaning too, without wanting too,
It’s never my intention to inflict pain on anyone that I connect with.
There’s too many of you to love, so there’s too many of you to hurt.

I can’t see my boys grow to be like me, to turn into me, to want to be anything like me,
Any influence I have with them, will pull them further down, drag them into this mess,
The world is what you make of it, once you’ve created the foundation there’s no going back,
Be happy with the small things, smile and love with all of you, never look backwards,
Be better than me.

I love you all,

****, keep going, for them, be strong, succombe to the beauty in you, let it take you over

*******, I love you
******, I love you

If there’s something after this, I’ll wait forever,
Live hard, live full, love everything,
don’t fade away, stand out, be yourselves, let no-one change you,
Always believe how perfect, and beautiful you both are now, and always will be.

Smile x