things are also amazing and really suffocating at the same time. i am not nearly as suicidal now, sometimes the fleeting thought comes into my mind but its not as bad. i haven’t cut in a long time, maybe 3-6 months, or more. i have got someone that is amazing and i love unconditionally, and they love me as well,t i know the love is genuine and its there and its amazing and beautiful.i got a place in a specialist music college, i start in September.
things with the home situation still are not good, ,and worse in some ways. and within myself i still feel the depression and urge to cut. i just want to get out, move out. feel completely new and have no worries. but that wont happen for maybe 2 or 3 years, for practical  reasons like money.