Hey everyone,
I have been suicidal for a long time. Been hospitalized three times before. I’m just falling again and I don’t feel like I can make it anywhere. It’s too difficult for me to go on because my past haunts me constantly.
I’m planning on doing it during the summer and losing contact with classmates before hand so my death won’t effect them. Anyways, I’m just wondering what people think happens afterwards… I’m just wondering but I know no one can really know for sure until that time
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My absolute favorite question to ponder! That’s the lure of it, no one here can tell you, they can only give an opinion. Personally, I don’t think we’re capably of contemplating what actually happens when we die. I think it’s different for everyone. Maybe some people experience paradise, some are reborn, some are reborn on a different world in a different universe (I hope I am), or maybe nothing happens. No more thoughts, no senses. Maybe everyone that ever died still walks the earth. An extra atmosphere of ghosts or something. I do believe nothing is ever created nor destroyed, so something has to happen with our souls.
To rant further (because you got me going)…. I don’t know what your reason for contemplating suicide is but for me it’s the mystery of what happens after death. I’m so damn curious, and I don’t have anything going on in this life anyway. I want to die simply because I want to know what happens next.
and here is the conundrum:
If “nothing,” will you know?
If you have no consciousness, you cannot be aware of lacking consciousness.
If you do not exist, you cannot be aware of not existing.
The really interesting part is that “what if” your consciousness doesn’t end, but you lose all your physical properties, including the brain that allows thought and holds memories?
What if we become a disembodied consciousness, vaguely aware of existing, but without a way to interact with anything, no knowledge, no memories, no control.
Think of the difference between a video game and a movie… or perhaps a video game and a song… instead of “doing” you’re just “aware,” but through a purely “spiritual” conduit, rather than anything physical, including eyes, ears, flesh…
Just a totally free point of energy, with no will or form or sensation. No thoughts, no memories, no opinions.
I struggle to even comprehend how such a thing could even be possible, based on the way we, as humans, currently perceive ourselves, and the environments in which we exist.
Honestly, upon death, the most likely thing is that your brain dumps a bunch of chemicals and you hallucinate, and that trip is probably based on whatever you thought was most likely to occur at the end. A sort of natural anti-despair comforting consolation mechanism. I would find it likely that people who die hating their lives, or die in terror or agony, with intense regrets, are most likely to hallucinate something along the lines of “Hell,” whereas people who have made peace with their mortality, would be likely to perceive something akin to “Heaven.”
But no one really knows for sure, aside from the fact that no one ever returns from the other side, unless they are revived very shortly after their physical death, in which case, you could argue that they never completed their transition, and so can’t really know what happens after the point of no return.
My personal bet is on brain squeezing chemicals and throwing a “trip,” that either fades to black, or abruptly ends, upon brain death.
I agree with clevername. I’m hoping for eternal oblivion, but I accept that I won’t ever “know” that I’m dead. And I agree with Reba too: I’m very curious and reincarnation seems possible because I was apparently not alive before I was born.
Since conception/birth is a switch from not being alive to being alive, then I get a little doubt about my “eternal” oblivion. Another life might be better than my current life, so maybe I shouldn’t even hope for eternal oblivion in the first place. It’s a great post thans wreckitall.
this question i have asked myself thousands of times…if we die,what happens next? if u dont believe in the bible then you wont be interested in listening to me..but if u do. pay attention…..when a person dies he goes to its original state before living, which is nothing/unexistance…they dont go to heaven or hell,they are not reborn or stay as souls roaming around lost..they just stop existing..its like bein in a deeep sleep without dreaming.u have conciousness of absolutely nothing.. the bible says it and it also gives us a promise of hope, that people who die will later on be ressurected..both the good and bad, to have another chance at life in a perfect world which will be here on earth.
I have no idea how you feel but there is one thing I do know is about the funeral part. You say you are losing touch with friends so they can forget you but they will never forget you. My sister killed herself a year ago and people she hadn’t seen in years showed up and gave our family their support. My point is that people will always care even if they forget to show it. I honestly hope you change your mind but again I don’t know what its like to have that thought.
I wish I knew what happened after death. It is something that is always on mind. Im constantly wondering what my sister is doing and who is she with. I may not know what happens but I do know I am not scared to die anymore, if anything I am like bring it on because life is so overrated. I mean I like my life but if this is as good as it gets then I am ready for something way better and to be reconnected with my loved ones that have passed.
Good Luck to you! I hope you find the answers you are looking for.
Thanks for all the replies I thought maybe this was such a common topic no one would reply.
Reba2013 I have my own story which I might post later on. It’s basically just unbearable for me. I feel like a burden and useless and I’m just so disconnected from the world. I honestly think people would be better off without me.
Clevername that’s a really interesting idea that never occurred to me. If this is the case the chemicals released may not just be influenced by what you are thinking or expecting death is. I associate this with drugs, after all they just play on chemicals already in the brain but they can have very different reactions depending on quality, strain, etc despite what you think you’ll feel on it you never know and in one moment it can be extremely euphoric and in the next second turn you into a total wreck with such negative feelings.
Coitus we will never know until we know I don’t really think the reincarnation thing is what I would chose as ideal if I had a choice.. It’s too difficult here and the prospect of doing this again is too much though you never do know maybe we all have a chance to be happy if things got done again but differently. Though maybe if what Reba2013 said about the different universe and different world thing is right I’d say we had a better chance finding happiness elsewhere than giving Earth another shot.
Pain numb I’m not a really religious person but I am curious about what different religions say about death/suicide. I never really was sure I believed in god maybe I asked for impossible things but I do believe that if he exists he wouldn’t punish people for believing in the right or wrong god I think he would judge each life on their values and morales on their honesty and nature. But I found what you said very interesting much different from what others say about people who commit suicide “going to hell”
Brown Girl I don’t really want them to know and I don’t think they will because I’m a foster kid. I don’t exactly know how those funeral arrangements will occur but I know my social worker doesn’t have a list of my friends and I really just want to be forgotten and not hurt anyone. It’s really confusing for anyone to understand if they haven’t felt it..
I just wanted to ask if it isn’t too uncomfortable because I know it’s personal and don’t mean to bring something bad up.. But did you get a suicide note? I’ve been debating wether to leave one or not.. I actually have a whole journal dedicated to what I want someone to understand once I kill myself because I don’t want people to be hurt.. But I’m not sure if having the notes will actually hurt them more and I know they’ll never really understand so I don’t even know if I should try to get them to..
Personally I have thought about this topic a lot too.. Nothingness.. Roaming the world.. I don’t really know what to believe sometimes I switch my thoughts on this topic quite quickly.. I think you would just kinda be surrounded by darkness as you’re fading to death and whatever happens next will become clear (or not in the case of nothingness) in the next phase.
I also thought it might be like an eternal nightmare you can’t wake up from
I’ve also thought that your consciousness could just remain attached to your body meaning that for the rest of time or maybe for a limited time you would just be isolated in the dark ground left to whatever thoughts you have alone and in the dark.
I think we meet God. I think we will be judged on how we dwelt here on earth. Good and bad wont be the issues, but truth, mercy, love, justice… i dont know where suicide falls into that. Hopefully mercy. I too have planned a suicide. I have a good plan and a time. So i guess i will be finding out. I hope your heart is true before you make the deal to seal the deal.