I have been alone for so long being depressed has become normal I take medication to stop me losing control I am alone and all I want is someone to be here for me I want to be in love and I want to feel good about myself.
I have never been happy
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I feel the same way you do sometimes. Life has it’s ups and downs but the ups are worth living for. You just have to be patient 🙂
“I want to be in love and I want to feel good about myself, I have never been happy.”
I suspect that everyone at various points in thier lives have repeated those words and felt this say.
That we are not alone in our lonleness… there is some comfort… but lets be honest does not change the longing we have for that some ‘thing’ more.
I supsect that if everyone who felt alone could get together there would be a large group of pepole feeling alone in a large group of people.
What then can those do that honestly want different.
If we do not want to get lost and stuck in the morass of longing we must find a path.
Perhaps a place to start is to refraim the the longing
Instead of waiting.
Instead of wanting to be in love, or not instead but inaddtion to, we work on a way of being that is the love we hope for.
Love not as a thing to have but of a way to be? Without agenda, without the cry that it be recipicated, but just away of being. What might such a way of being attract?
Love is such a conplex thing. the disere to enter into the freedome of an other as they enter into ours.
“Sometimes the one who is running from the Life/Death/Life nature insists on thinking of love as a boon only. Yet love in its fullest form is a series of deaths and rebirths. We let go of one phase, one aspect of love, and enter another. Passion dies and is brought back. Pain is chased away and surfaces another time. To love means to embrace and at the same time to withstand many endings, and many many beginnings- all in the same relationship.â€
― Clarissa Pinkola Estés
“We are not the same persons this year as last, nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.†W. Somerset Maugham
How happy chance if, changing, continue to love the changed person even when, and maybe more importantly, that person is ourselves.
“We all begin the process before we are ready, before we are strong enough, before we know enough; we begin a dialogue with thoughts and feelings that both tickle and thunder within us. We respond before we know how to speak the language, before we know all the answers, and before we know exactly to whom we are speaking.â€
― Clarissa Pinkola Estés
I hear you I read this at school and your never alone you have people on here who care about you
Yes, I agree with you, newyork911, I too am alone, depressed, and unlucky.