Hi, this is my first time writing on this sight. It’s unfortunate it has to be under these circumstances. I’ve suffered from depression since I was 13. I’m 41 now. I’ve thought about suicide numerous times, but I always knew I wouldn’t do it. I always hoped that the future would be better. Now I’m afraid because I’ve been considering suicide again, but with a calm level head. I have something’s in my life that are too dear to me to hurt with such a selfish act, but the pain I’m feeling inside has gotten to be too much. I think admitting myself is the best thing to do, but I’m concerned about how to go about it and what the consequences could be. I have a government job, a wife and three children. How will admitting myself effect these areas of my life ? I’ve done the therapy and medication route. I think I’m running out of time. How do I admit myself and what are the consequences? I live in the north eastern part on NJ. I can get to a place called Bergen Pines. Thank you for any help anyone can offer.
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Sorry to hear you’re struggling so much 🙁
I don’t live in the USA but it’s pretty similar to get admitted – you go to either the emergency department and tell them that you are urgently suicidal, you have a plan, you’ve thought everything through and have the things you need to hurt yourself. Or you go to your doctor/psychiatrist/therapist/GP and tell them the same thing, and don’t be scared to tell them how desperate you are feeling and how urgent this is.
I’m not entirely sure what you mean by consequences, but someone in human resources would be able to tell you how a hospitalisation would affect your current job – if it would at all. As for your family… what would be the consequences for them if you *weren’t* admitted to hospital?
Good luck with everything. I hope someone from the USA can give you more thorough answers than I’ve been able to. Calm and level suicidality is really scary in a way, but it is also really deadly. When you’re desensitised to the idea of suicide, carrying it through doesn’t seem to be an issue. However, you have recognised that you have a problem and that for your family’s sake it would be better to get help with it… so give yourself credit for that. It takes guts to want to try and stay alive even though you are hurting.
Take care x
Call and ask them. They can’t commit you – they won’t hunt you down. They could *maybe* send the police out if you’re in imediate danger but it sounds like you just want some help. So, not likely they will.
Otherwise, Loopey is right.
They only keep you for 72 hours They call that Voluntary If you wish you could stay longer That’ll be up to you But those places are boring and makes even more depressed