I can’t ‘do’ life any more. I can’t get up each day, to go to a job that pays off debts, to come home to study for a degree that means I can get a job that pays more debt, which means I can take on more debt to pay off with a nicer job. Why the fuck is this a thing?! Why is this what life is about?! I literally hate my life, and I just feel stuck and suffocated and shit! I have no control anymore, I have no say in what happens, I have no fucks to give. I just don’t see the point in bothering with it all. I’m never happy, and I have no hope that I ever will be. I have no sense of hope or freedom or anything anymore. I just feel depression, despair and hopelessness. I don’t want to live like that. If I’m going to exist then I want to actually LIVE, but I have no option to do that right now, and don’t see it happening in the future. So I’m just thinking fuck it, what am I even here for?
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Slave to debt
That unfortunately is what life in the country, and the world has come to pretty much. Unless you’re in the top tier that is wealthy.
i don’t think you have to commit suicide. here is an article that might interest you:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/steve-rhode/get-out-of-debt-fast-but-_b_2481757.html
i don’t think this debt is something that is irreversible if you are just wise with your money and save up. i know there is some information out there you can use. keep fighting because you never know when something amazing happens to you!
Yeah I totally agree with all 3 of you. Aside from our personal debts, corporate and government accounting is a complete joke. Trillion dollar deficits and IPO belly flops are the new normal while we basically rape the entire planet and future generations of our own species as well.
Liabilities are painted to be assets, and assets are valued with mark-to-fantasy numbers. None of the fiat currencies are backed by anything and 95% of the money is (not even printed) just fleeting numbers on networks. Something like BitCoin comes along, a totally virtual and experimental currency and FX traders start buying bitcoins for over $1000 each.
Today I’ve been reading about the (current, man made) Holocene mass extinction. It all comes down to one big “WTF?!” Great post thanks all. 🙂
Whoops I didn’t even see that post from dman5505 last night. There are dozens of these self-help / home-budgeting writers out there. I think they can help a lot of people, but not everyone.
On the other hand, it’s probably worth asking ourselves if we’d be happier if we won $10 million in the lottery. Not just for a week, but would it pretty-much solve our life problems? With $10M, someone could have a nice home two cars a boat and provide a good life for their spouse and 2-3 children; all without having to work another day of their life.
For me the $10M does nothing. In my mind I know peak population’s coming (with peak fossil fuel & peak food) at 8.5 billion within 10 years. Entertaining a wife and kids by playing house while this nightmare unfolds is not going to help me. I don’t even want to standby while billions die off on the way back to 3 billion by the end of this century. The survivalist culture has no appeal to me.
We are like other living things: with one purpose. But this is a special time, when the Earth has (at least) ten times more people than it can carry. Note: I am not talking about an “end of the world,” but a return to normal numbers of around 1 billion people. Anyway (rather than be biologically successful) many of us are already extras and we MUST fail in our purpose. There’s much more than personal finance to the reasons some of us have for suicide I think.