I’ve gotten everything in order. My will is made, all my affairs are in order. Made my last projects I wanted to do or said I would do. I’ve no regret. Tomorrow morning they will find out the truth. I’m mad I’m alone. Upset that I couldn’t get the help I needed. Scared because I don’t want to over do it and I just end up throwing up and still be alive. Exhausted because all these migraines are getting worse. I just wanted my friends to understand. I’m sick. There finally I’ve said it.
God please forgive. My life is a patch work of mistakes and this time there will not be a big enough patch to fix this.
I’m done doing what I can to fix things. Now I’m going to make a permenant fix.
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you must feel so free right now knowing that you’ve set everything straight – i envy you, my friend.
Wasn’t easy. Everyone was difficult with me the past couple of days. I wanted to help everyone and all I was met with was aggression. Thinking I should have left them a mess so that they know how much I do for them.
Mh do you also have this damn surivival instinct always kicking in when wanting to do it. then my body stopps… how do you overcome this instinct? is there no other way for you? 🙁