I don’t want to be here. It feels like I am in a room and there is very little oxygen here. It feels suffocating. I have to strive very hard to breath. It feels tormenting. I feel like the walls are coming in from all the 6 sides. And I am gonna be smashed. There are no doors or windows over here. The walls are sound proof. No matter how much I shout no1 can hear me. Some1 has placed heavy weight on my heart I feel like crying the whole time but I can’t find even a single tear in my eyes. I am not even able to remorse. I don’t want to be here.
I dnt see myself the way I used to see before. I feel I am a pathetic person . I dnt recognize myself now. The previous me seems to be dead without a funeral. I dnt communicate with people any more. I dnt talk much or shout as I used to do previously. I find people talking around me but I dnt find myself encouraged enough to join the conversation. I dnt find any conversation interesting anymore. I drag myself through the day to find it end and through the night to find the next morning. I feel I’m heartless manytimes. I dnt feel like living anymore. I want to die. To suicide. I only wish some1 would plz kill me. I dnt wanna live anymore.