my name is Daniel im 23 years old ive been depressed for along time I think im a nobody always been told by my family ide never become anyone and I cant control the anger I have aginst everyone society family everything only thing I have left is my cat I love …….. its either im going to snap one day and do something I regret or I should just end my pain and anger im going to use cyanide pills within the next 3 months im just done
………I mean people doit everyday…… why not just get it over with im nothing no one cares for me and ive never had someone love me
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Daniel, are you open to a private exchange? I feel very similar, except I don’t have a cat. I had 2 parakeets as a little girl. One died the week I left home. Another, the only thing other than my folks to love me, I killed. He had snuggled up to me when I was 13 and lay on my bed. I woke up and he was under me, dead. The only other thing to love me.
Anyhow, there’s a rawness in your post that drew me to it. I’d like to chat if you would.
lol where the hell you’v got cyanide pills from :)) no dont tell me, coz cops may read it and attack the selling place. i personally do not recommend cyanide. last 15seconds will be very unpleasant and you will not loose consciousness untill the death will come. i prefer something that will knock me off before i die. helium, or pentobarbital. i so envy you… i want to die but last few years my life started to change towards good. and i cant throw everything away that easily now.i have found job of my dream and… i should have done that when i was in your age. i and my cat loved each other also.she’s not with me anymore.have you thought killing somebody who you blame for being like this?for example people which were bullying on you.i mean, you are commiting suicide anyway, whos gonna judge you? they may hang your dead body you will not feel anything anyway.crime before suicide is ideal moment to punish those who has hurt you, and you will not have to pay for anything at all.
sure iowagirl I don’t mind.
i’m in the same situation. sometime soon i’ll be leaving this earth hopefully and my illness will finally be over for good.
Daniel, do you have an anonymous email address? I use my school email address, but if you don’t have an anonymous one I can make one up just so we can communicate.
Orphanatom, what illness are you referring to? What timeline are you considering?
schizophrenia, but i’d like to call it severe depression instead so people won’t judge me or be afraid as much. my time is running short here, i don’t have a time planned, but when the day comes (soon i think, within a month or two) then i’ll be hung by a rope in death.
My heart skipped a beat when I read your coment. My brother hung himself 1 week ago. He seemed like he lived on a different planet sometimes… He was in his bed day after day doing nothing and was changing his mood very fast – from super happy to super sad. Im trying to understand what was going on in his head and WHY he killed himself. I miss him and I am totally confused… Maby you can answer my questions?
I am depressed but mostly its just hate for what the planet has become and what people do to people who are different ive just had it ive got a date already and aint no one stopping me .