I want to be a drifter. I imagine well actually I know from similar experience that it totally sucks to have no food or shelter but the thought of the freedom pretty much doing what ever I want within reason. I just feel like walking no specific destination no specific reason I just want to get up go and not stop till I’m lucky enough to die or get killed. I’m tired of looking back
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The trade offs are big. Having been homeless I can say it can really suck. I had the best times of my life during those couple weeks but all those good times could have happened if I wasn’t homeless. When you got a job and bills you say man I wish I had more freedom and fuck this job and the bills. When your homeless you say man I got all this freedom but I don’t even have a dollar for the bus let alone food. This pack on my back sucks to carry around and I’m tired as hell. Its can be some bs. Honestly the best thing In life is truly loving someone…no amount of sex drugs or money can compare. Without it honestly not worth the price of admission imo.
I really recommend you watching or reading Into the Wild which is a true amazing story (google chris McCandless) of a man who just left, with nothing, graduated with a Bachelors, donated all his money 24,000$ to charity and just left to be homeless and hitchhike and live and see the world as it is, really good movie/book, my favorite 🙂
Reminds me of the diner scene from pulp fiction.
Ooo I second kilofifi’s recommendation — it’s one of my faves. Only don’t google anything (spoilers), and watch the movie before reading the book.
I’ve seen into the wild and I’ve read the book. It’s where I got the idea. I just don’t care about anyone. I tell myself I do but I feel nothing toward anybody.
“sucks to have no food or shelter but the thought of the freedom pretty much doing what ever I want” –
Freedom to do what ever you want except eating and sleeping under a roof,
Free to depend on the kindness of others. But sure Free…..
And even the homeless have rules.
@SadBk – what was it about Into the Wild that made it one of your faves?
I haven’t’ read the book but after seeing the movie I remember being really angry and frustrated.
@left22 People seem to have strong “love or hate” reactions for some reason. It did frustrate me a bit but that also made me appreciate it more. I don’t wanna spoil it for people who haven’t seen it though…not that anyone in this thread cares I s’pose cuz we’ve all seen it… meh. I’ll just be vague. I certainly didn’t agree with everything Chris did, but he was a fascinating character, more so since it’s based on a true story. The whole bit with Ron reeeeally touched me; I could relate to that character a lot. And the music was beautiful. The soundtrack is one of the few CDs I will “allow” myself to listen to anymore. I read the book after because I wanted to know more… and it was good, but this is a rare case where I prefer the movie to the book (and if you read the book first, the end is spoiled right in the beginning!).
@SadBk
I had the opportunity to watch the film again but wasn’t able to bring myself to do it.
I suspect that it’s due to the clash between my fantasy of the “walk about experienceâ€, reality and need for meaning.
I guess as I joined in the journey through the movie I was unconsciously hoping (needing) for a different ending, Even though I know that such a journey can end in no other way.