It’s unbelievable how easy it is to fool people. I’ve tried hard to not get fucked up when I’m feeling depressed but it’s been so bad lately I needed to do something to make me have some sort of feeling. I took a lot of cold medicine with codeine in it and they I took a lot of anxiety medicine. I also found these weird mango diet pills in my sisters room and I took a couple of those, I know they probably won’t get me high but at least I won’t feel the need to eat. It’s just crazy that no one knows how fucked up I am right now. To be honest I’m surprised that I’m typing right now. It’s late so I use my normal excuse, “I’m just really tired.” I feel like such a bad person for doing this to myself, but at the same time I don’t. Everyone in my house is just in such a bluesy mood and it sucks, I hate having to be around it. So I’m having a little party of my own tonight…I’ll probably crash within the hour. So for now I’m just enjoying my time and relaxing. Peace and goodnight all <3
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Honestly, your not fooling others,but your fooling yourself….taking those drugs is not helping things but making it worst, and im not judging trust and believe. Yet take care of yourself and think about it…what i’m doing is it worth it?–>Stay strong
Um have you considered telling some one? Look sounds to me like you want a little attention. I’m not accusing or judging I’m just saying what I think it’s one of them rights we Americans have. ( hurray for us but not really) I hear mixing Benadryl with alcohol will fuck one up . Not advising or directing I’m just stating what I know.