I don’t really know how I ended up here, writing about myself.
I was okay, I really was…. until my friend came to me, telling me that they want to commit suicide. I tried to help them, and I know it wasn’t my fault, but i just feel like i failed them. It doesn’t help when nearly all of my friends are the same. They all want to die. And i just feel like i have no one to talk too because i don’t want to pile on to their problems. I don’t want to give them another reason to leave. I try to see the good in life, the things worth living for. But somehow my thoughts always end up in the same place. The bad. It haunts me so much that i stay awake at night, every night because i just can’t go to sleep without having nightmares. In the past 48 hours i haven’t slept at all… not once and it’s starting to take it’s toll.
I just can’t. Not anymore. It’s too much.
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I’d say try with your friends because it’s seems like you’re hurting as well. Would you like to talk? email me
I’d say try with your friends because it’s seems like you’re hurting as well. Would you like to talk? email me
Hey, well done for coming here to talk.
You really sound like you could do with some proper help and some people to cheer you up.
There must be someone more resourceful you know you can go to? Especially about getting some sleep. Oh, and it’s okay to talk about what you find difficult in life. Most people feel that need.
Usually, it will be harder for yourself, than the person listening (remember, they aren’t living it). And most people like to help.
Just make sure they can handle it and that talking to them helps you, otherwise, maybe seek out someone else.
Do take care, you are valuable, and there is light at the end of the tunnel. Life has its ups and downs, lots of them, but you can learn to roll with the punches and ride the waves.
If you feel like venting, you can write to muspelhem@hotmail.com