Like anyone actually gives a fuck about an ugly fat ass 14 year old… I act as if someone actually DOES.. But no one does… Don’t say you fucking do. I’m not an idiot. It’s just an act. Hell. I could’ve hung myself today and my teacher would’ve felt guilty! For what? NOTHING! BECAUSE NOBODY GIVES A FUCK! NOBODY CARES! NOBODY WANTS ME AROUND! I might as well be fucking DEAD. I’m just a fucking ANNOYANCE. Everyone says differently, BUT I KNOW IT’S TRUE BY THE WAY THEY ACT. “Actions speak louder than words” they say. 14 years and I’m JUST now realizing that nobody cares? WOW I’M SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT!! I’m so angry and depressed and worthless. I DESERVE TO DIE! I want to cry so badly, but I WASTED my tears on MOTHERFUCKERS who I thought CARED. I just want to leave this painful word. It’ll be BETTER for everyone. No one will have to worry about the ‘fun-sized’ 5′ 1″, green eyed, stupid ass blonde. Oh, and I’m Fucking German, making me a fucking NAZI. I HATE PEOPLE!!! THEY’RE SO JUDGEMENTAL THEY ALWAYS WANT SOMETHING AND THEY DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU!!!!!!
What the hell is the point in living huh? Answer me that. I’m fucking done. I’m fucking DONE. I’M FUCKING DONE WITH YOU BITCHES!!! IT’S OVER!! I HATE LIFE!! I HATE LIVING! I HATE PEOPLE! I HATE FOOD! I HATE EVERYTHING!! I JUST WANT TO DIE ALREADY…… Fuck…. Sorry for being such an inconvenience. Sorry for ‘yelling’. Sorry for wasting your time. Sorry for LIVING.
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whats the point in living? everything will turn around as soon as you desire to be happy and for a change. people care they might not show it but they do.they dont tell you anything because they’re scared of your reaction.im the exact same way trust me. i often feel the same but im being honest.if you commit suicide tonight or any other night you will FORSURE go to hell.and you will suffer 10x more than you do here. which would you prefer? to suffer for a bit of time or a life of eternal suffering.believe in hell or not.its real but they’res also a heaven.seek God and things will turn your life around you’ll be happy.trust me on this even though you do not know me.this suffering is temporarily,dont hurt yourself.your life is so precious and beautiful than you can imagine.you have a happy future ahead of you believe it or not.you deserve happiness.dont let people like that get you down.your better than that.people can be judgemental but at the end of the day you ONLY know who you are,what you feel,everything.dont let their words bring you down.be who you are and be happy with who you are.dont waste your time wishing you were dead because your blessed to be breathing.maybe you tried commiting suicide before maybe not i dont know your life but i strongly do believe if your suicide attempt never succeeded its because your meant to be here,living,something amazing and perfect is in store for you.dont waste your time,live that happy dream you deserve. follow me on twitter @amazeyvonne_ or instagram :princessyvonna or kik: princessyvonna_ im always here for you.i wont judge,i’ll help you and remind you why you should keep living if i have to because i know how much your hurting with these harsh words. stay strong and remember this world doesn’t wanna loose another soul to suicide,make a difference to others. <3
Don’t belive in “God”
even tho i know u dont want people telling u they understand whats goin on with u..ill still tell u..because i do get what ur going thru..as i went thru the same…weight problems, no friends, judgemental idiots, family not caring and i still have those problems…im 18 now tho..im not 14 anymore. Ive grown up and things arent as bad as they used to. i cant tellu everything will be okay because i dont know that..but if u think ur friends dont really care why not look for new ones? ppl that understand u. heres my email..melissa_villegas15@hotmail.com email me if u would like to chat..u can talk about anything and trust me i wont judge u ill just listen and try and give u some tips that helped me throughout the years
melissa_villegas15@hotmail.com
While I believe in God, I don’t believe that seeking him will turn your life around for the better, trust me I know from experiance, God isnt bothered with the pain of people simply because if he was he would of self destructed into oblivion.
Nobody does care, its true, if they do then that care is slight.
Bloodi, I feel exactly the same, I could of wrote that myself!
On a positive note though, you’re 14, this life is a fight for some and a flight for others, changes can happen quite quickly too though so just keep trying for change is all you can do. Good luck!
send me an email, if you want to give me a chance to try to change your mind about God.