Numb

I am still living after that day, The day the screaming was loudest that day where the voices won that day. Ever since then I have been numb no feelings, no emotions, just nothing. I have seen a friend get hurt one I like a lot and I can’t help, I told her my feelings and she still does this around me. When she does I leave my apt and ask nothing of them I just leave crying in my mind cause tears can’t fall from my eyes cause my body is tired of it, I am numb cause of it. I told her that she is not the cause it is me it is the voices… I am numb to the point feeling in the physical aspect is going away. Why cant I kill myself just put a bullet in my head. I rather have my brain die so my organs can be use to make someone else’s life better cause right now they nothing to me. I am numb