I’ve been in school for about six or seven years now. College. But I’m only a junior.
College hit me hard. I’m a fraction of the student I once was-and nothing like what my family wanted for me.
They want me to be successful so I can keep enjoying myself but I’m sure this final is going to be the beginning of the end. My GPA is too low and I’ve already been suspended before, so the next time will mean expulsion. After this will go my chance at college education-and with no other practical or life skills, anything I could possibly be worth. My parents spoiled me as a kid-now I’ll never return to that kind of good life. And I’ll never be allowed to-I don’t deserve it anymore. I’ll be everyone’s shame after that, no matter what I do.
I’m giving myself one more summer. That should be enough to put my affairs in order. Just enough time so the people who really care will know-and I can tell them to remember me.
One more summer, then I make sure I never hurt anyone or burden them ever again.
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Don’t live up to other’s expectations..they had their life and this is yours..and yours alone. Who is to say that if you fail you have failed in life……academics are just one way of succeeding in life. Are you a good person, kind, gentle in your approach to others? If the answer is yes, then you have succeeded where others have failed miserably. Be kind to yourself, trust in your destiny and stop living your life for others. Each one of us has a purpose in life, yours may not be the one you thought, but if you just trust in yourself as a decent human being, the plan will reveal itself in time.
Think about what you really want in life, a cushy life, or a meaningful life? If you want to help people then all you need is love in your heart, if you want a cushy life with no worries, then study hard and get your results….either way you win.
I’m in the same boat, 3rd year of my undergrad, not successful enough for my parents, my girlfriend who I love seems distant from me and now that she is gone for a month I feel as though she is starting to realize she doesn’t need me. My parents handed me a lot as well and now I am basically on my own and I feel as though I deserve to be alone. I hurt my parents by not being enough and I hurt the girl I love by not being enough. I hate my life but theres still people in it that I love, I have no idea what to do…