Hey,I’m 16 and already depressed you may find that really weird but it’s really not ,I’m going to tell you my story and the problems that I had those 5 last years, so everything began when i was 11 , I was a cute and naive little girl , funny and happy, I had a group of friends which I considered great, who loved me and considered me as one of the them but I was completely wrong because at the first opportunity they excluded me from the group and left me alone , during all the year i spent all my breaks wal round and round alone ,in the daytime i smiled and try to show them that the fact that they all let me broken didn’t affect me but when i’m back home i cried all night long to try to sleep myself,loneliness is the worst thing a person can crossed,the year of my 11 was a hard one for me because i was just a kid not even a teen and to lose  all his friends at 11 is really hard,then came the problems with my parents because of the problems at school i couldn’t concentrate on my work so i had bad marks and it didn’t really help me to get better , then come my 12 i really thought that it would be an amazing year , i had new friends, new class, new teachers,it was just like a new life for me but this year was even worse than the other , so my new friends were fabulous 3 girls that i really considerate like my sisters one of them was a really popular girl , so i was like yeaah i will be popular too , i was 12 so it was a fabulous thing for me to be popular haha,but then i had problems with them,some stupid ***** told to the popular girl who was my best friend that i was saying bad things about her and she began to hate me , the other 2 girls did like her , i was lonely for the second time , i remember that one day i heard them talking about me so i just couldn’t believe that the girls who were supposed to be my best friends was treating me like shit so i began to cry and directly go to the toilets a girl came to me and began to talk with me about that I began to scream and say that everything was so unfair so the 3 girls came to me and began to laugh at me and say that i was really acting like a baby so i just couldn’t control myself and I just said to them all the things that i was thinking about those little bitches and that they really didn’t deserve the importance that i granted them , they were shocked one of them slapped me in the face so i slapped her back , it was the worst day of my life it was my best friend , at this moment i understood how much people can be hypocrite and really don’t deserve our love it was my first suicide attempt i was 12 and really stupid but i was sad and it was killing me i tried many times to suicide but failed every time.I was more and more lonely every day and decide to discuss with them they accept to “forgive ” me funny thing because they made all that happen , so i began to chill with them next year i was 13 and everything was going pretty cool for me just some problems with my parents because of my marks , so I believe that this year would be a great one and that I almost lived the worst of it , I was wrong again! the year began pretty well i was happy with my friends and had a boyfriend that i really loved , but i feel that one of my best friends was in love with him and my feeling was real because of what she did after that , so one day that i was for the 10090098497  time irritated with my friend and my boyfriend I told a girl about my feeling she immediately speak about it with the hoe she and my boyfriend pretended to go out together so i’ll be really sad, and for the 12342452 time i was alone again , but it was worse than the last year because all the school began to bully me and i really had no friend at all , we had a class trip one day and i was really alone no one to laugh with , no one to talk with , i was going crazy next suicide attempt but this time i tried everything to stop the pain , pills , cutting, jump off the window everything but i was to afraid to do it , this year was also the year when I doubled the class because of the bad work, when i knew that i began to cry so hard that i thought i was going to get blind or crazy , fortunately i get crazy haha , new people new friends , new year , same problems with a friend but it was my fault this time , I had also a boyfriend who didn’t deserve me ’cause he didn’t understood what i was living i began cutting but i stop it really quickly next suicide attempt nothing still alive , then there is this year where i just can’t love anybody , I have a lot of friends who really love me because i feel it but i just can’t love because of all the times I’ve been shocked by a person and disappointed , I feel ugly , worthless , useless, stupid, foolish , and i think that I’m a disappointment for everyone and that i’m so lonely .
Ps: Sorry for my bad English :S
IF SOMEBODY HAVE ANY SOLUTIONS OR WANT TO TALK WITH ME ABOUT THAT JUST COMMENT THANK YOU FOR HAVING READ 🙂