New to this site, I’m probably a typical suicide-obsessive. Was wondering if anyone else is in this position–having been medicated off and on for years, with the impact of the medications steadily eroding despite multiple changes. I’ve had changes to my prescriptions probably ten times in the last three years, and I suspect that a loss of faith in the power of these drugs–which I had early on, and which contributed to positive change–has sapped them of their main attribute, the placebo effect. Not sure where I’m going with this post now, not looking for med recommendations, just wondering if others are at a point where the chemical solutions seem to have all failed at the same time. Doctors, in my experience, are not much help at this juncture.
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I’ve tried differnt medications on and off my whole life. Antidepressant / anti-anxiety types. Over the years they’ve helped but I eventually go off and relapse sooner or later. I’ve tried as many therapists as medications, I imagine.
You said you weren’t sure where you were going when you posted… I don’t have any recommendations for meds but what I’ve found for myself is that if a particular medication works, I’ll go back to it. I won’t let a doctor try and sell me on the latest and greatest bullshit. And, most importantly, I will never take an antidepressant for longer than two years. Ever. Because you do run into chemical changes in the brain and like you described. If you research, antidepressant medication isn’t meant to be taken forever like a lot of people think.
So, I turn to medication when I feel like I have been and find a therapist – just to talk to – until I get functional again. Then, rinse and repeat as I go. This has been my life and continues, I expect, until I really do finally get too old and tired. Which, I don’t think will be a whole lot longer. I already know that my life will end when I finally give up and hang myself. I just don’t know when that will be as the human survival instinct is a bastard sometimes.
I’m 41, I’ve been on effexcor (helps but side effects sucked) and a bunch that didnt help. For me the best way iss the natural way and cannibus is natural and it is the only thing that helps me. Unfortunatley I rarely smoke cuz im broke. sorry probably didnt help ya
I have a history with all the illegal drugs, they’ve all one by one stopped generating any kind of ecstasy. I think a lot about getting off meds entirely, but I have a three year old son and cannot really afford to have another psychotic episode, despite my one months-long episode being one of the best times of my life.
It’s frustrating though, because I really don’t believe my doctors have any idea what is going on with the drugs they prescribe. We’re guinea pigs, essentially, and meds are the only answer they have.