Two nights ago I couldn’t sleep. I was plenty tired but for whatever reason I just couldn’t sleep, at all. I ended up not sleeping that day, not that I needed much energy anyways. Later that day, I began to feel this sudden guiltiness just take over. I couldn’t think of anything else, everything I did only gave me another reason to hurt myself more. I haven’t eaten since then, only drinking water every hour, the amount of cuts on my stomach and arms increased drastically compared to how much I usually cut and I’ve been swallowing pills randomly as I get the urge.
I don’t know why, or what happened, but it’s been this way for two days, and no one in my family has noticed yet. I can’t help but feel it’s something I did before, forgot about and is now catching up to me. If it was, then similar things have happened, but it’s never lasted more than an hour, so I wonder what I did this time?
For now at least, all I know is something is wrong.
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I’m not sure what’s up with your sleepless nights but the cutting and the pill-taking? I think its simply a random urge. I suggest you try to push the urge aside. Like when you get the urge to do swallow down one pill, just think “I have other better things to do,” and get on with it. If you get a habit of doing so, eventually the urge to cut or so may eventually die off too. 🙂