Your knight in shining armour.

As a baby, I was obsessed with knights and the role they played in protecting people. I guess that’s what made me title this post in that way. Anyways, I don’t really know if this will help anyone. I guess I’m just putting it out there because at least I’ll know I did something. I would talk about me and my problems but trusting people has never been my strong point and to be honest, I think it’s too late for me. The least I can do is give tips and help other people. I am not forcing you to listen to me. That’s the last thing I want. But I just want everyone reading this to take a break from whatever they’re doing or thinking or planning and just take in mind what I have to say. As a suicidal person and a person who is prone to mental illnesses, I’ve learnt one thing. I don’t need people sympathising with me. I don’t need people patronising me. All I need is someone to listen and just take in what I have to say. I guess, in the end, that’s what everyone needs? One person that you can fully trust and open up to. One person you know will always be there and be right by your side. I’m not saying your going to find that person tomorrow or the next year but you will find them. You just have to wait and be patient and endure. If you already have that person, do not lose them. Don’t. Communicate with them. When you feel alone or numb or you feel like there’s a huge blanket over your mind or there’s a void in your heart, go and have a hot drink. A hot drink will help you feel better. It always will. Hot tea or maybe a green tea. If you have trouble sleeping, have a mug of hot water instead. Sip it slowly and work something out. Empty your mind of all the problems and just drink and feel warm. I know many people have trouble sleeping. I sort of have a technique which helps but every person is different so please don’t get angry if this doesn’t work. Get into bed. Wear clothes you feel comfortable in. Close your eyes. Empty your mind of all your problems, there’s no need to think about them. Hug yourself around the waist and just breathe. Then think about a happy time in your past where you felt happy, warm, safe. Some people may not be able to think of such a time and I understand, so think of something you want. Maybe it’s spending time with that special someone. Maybe it’s a certain career you want. Think about something that you want. Even if the odds of getting it are one to million, just think of it. Now, before you suicide or self harm, write yourself a letter. Just write about what’s on your mind and what your feeling and why your in this situation. Hopefully you’ll feel better and then, read the letter once and rip it up or burn it. I’m not a doctor or an expert or some sort of professional. I’m just an average 17 year old boy who just wants to try and help people and maybe start something. There’s always a solution to every problem. Everyone deserves to be happy. You may have been born with a crap set of cards or you may have just gone into a time of your life where everything feels like crap. But it will never always be the same. Things always change. You should never give up on yourself. The moment you give up on yourself, the voices/the depression wins. Well there you go. If anyone feels they want to talk to me, any time, about anything and I don’t care if its anonymous or if you just want to shout at me, email me or inbox me. Thank you for taking the time to read this x